Dear anxiety,
i know you still cling to me
like clockwork, you never fail
to show up,
control my every move,
like a puppet and its master—
pulling the strings
making me look at my life
through a mirror,
yet I'm forever scared—
to lose you—
old friend.
i walk around in a haze,
but you're there to comfort me,
a static noise i can't turn off
old friend—
i can't sleep without you
sleeping beside me,
sending shivers down my spine,
i feel you touching me,
with your cold breath.
i shiver - I'm scared—
of what you do to me.
but i let you stay.
you influence my speech,
put words in my mouth—
that i didn't want to say.
make me stutter,
’cause i can feel you
clawing at the door—
to let you in
when everything seems calm
i always let you back in
i ask you to leave,
but you make me stutter—
You poison me—
and i end up
begging you to stay
you know you're my weakness.
you may burn everything to the ground,
everything i have—
but i can't get rid of you—
i always hear you calling my name
answer it in a heartbeat, old friend—
you understand me and comfort me,
I'm addicted to the feeling of drowning,
with tears running down my face
I'm addicted to the ghost inside of me—
i hate you
but i still let you in
i regret it.
i stopped feeling
and started accepting—
that you're always here,
you're part of me.
May 6, 2025
May 6, 2025 at 3:56 PM UTC
Dear anxiety,
i know you still cling to me
like clockwork, you never fail
to show up,
control my every move,
like a puppet and its master—
pulling the strings
making me look at my life
through a mirror,
yet I'm forever scared—
to lose you—
old friend.
i walk around in a haze,
but you're there to comfort me,
a static noise i can't turn off
old friend—
i can't sleep without you
sleeping beside me,
sending shivers down my spine,
i feel you touching me,
with your cold breath.
i shiver - I'm scared—
of what you do to me.
but i let you stay.
you influence my speech,
put words in my mouth—
that i didn't want to say.
make me stutter,
’cause i can feel you
clawing at the door—
to let you in
when everything seems calm
i always let you back in
i ask you to leave,
but you make me stutter—
You poison me—
and i end up
begging you to stay
you know you're my weakness.
you may burn everything to the ground,
everything i have—
but i can't get rid of you—
i always hear you calling my name
answer it in a heartbeat, old friend—
you understand me and comfort me,
I'm addicted to the feeling of drowning,
with tears running down my face
I'm addicted to the ghost inside of me—
i hate you
but i still let you in
i regret it.
i stopped feeling
and started accepting—
that you're always here,
you're part of me.
