I told everyone that I’d be fine -
They dynamited my golden years
And put the pieces in the trash -
But I said I would be OK.
I have resources and reserves
That paved the way
Past rocky highways in the past
And would suffice me once again.
I reassured the ones who wept
That this was not to be an ending -
That I had maps and GPS
To guide me to a safer haven.
But when I looked inside the box
Containing my bravado
There was a hug and a kindly word
And nothing else to help me.
Shocked at all that emptiness
The first thing that I did was cry
And gape into that hollow space
To wonder where the courage went.
But when I saw the others stare
I clamped the lid back on real tight
And glued a smile onto my face,
Picked up my box and strode away.
Now I’m hidden safe at home
Astonished at my disbelief
That years could warp away and melt
The fortitude I counted on.
That I should find myself alone
With nothing but a broken crutch
To help me cross the quicksand bog
And locate solid ground again.
How shall I navigate the mire?
My GPS and maps are gone.
Bravura’s just a memory.
I’m not the big girl after all,
There is no Mommie I can call
No friend to offer magic beans
This time I find myself alone
To see if I can find a way
To fill back up that empty box.
ljm
Apr 20, 2018
Apr 20, 2018 at 1:14 AM UTC
I told everyone that I’d be fine -
They dynamited my golden years
And put the pieces in the trash -
But I said I would be OK.
I have resources and reserves
That paved the way
Past rocky highways in the past
And would suffice me once again.
I reassured the ones who wept
That this was not to be an ending -
That I had maps and GPS
To guide me to a safer haven.
But when I looked inside the box
Containing my bravado
There was a hug and a kindly word
And nothing else to help me.
Shocked at all that emptiness
The first thing that I did was cry
And gape into that hollow space
To wonder where the courage went.
But when I saw the others stare
I clamped the lid back on real tight
And glued a smile onto my face,
Picked up my box and strode away.
Now I’m hidden safe at home
Astonished at my disbelief
That years could warp away and melt
The fortitude I counted on.
That I should find myself alone
With nothing but a broken crutch
To help me cross the quicksand bog
And locate solid ground again.
How shall I navigate the mire?
My GPS and maps are gone.
Bravura’s just a memory.
I’m not the big girl after all,
There is no Mommie I can call
No friend to offer magic beans
This time I find myself alone
To see if I can find a way
To fill back up that empty box.
ljm
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