If you’re reading this,
you’re probably expecting
a neat little description of the author.
Sorry to disappoint you,
you won’t get one.
What you will get
are the questions that haunt me,
the answers I avoid,
and the explanations
I’ve rehearsed a thousand times
in my head.
Should I begin with the secret
I’ve been hiding—
the one I’m desperate
and terrified to reveal?
You might be lucky
and uncover it.
Either way,
I wish you the best of luck.
Some of you may call me cruel,
unfeeling.
But in the kind of world I’ve lived in,
it’s better that way.
Maybe that’s why
I couldn’t cry
when my brother died.
I could have saved him.
But why would I?
It’s not like
he would have done the same for me.
Mar 21
Mar 21, 2026 at 3:56 PM UTC
If you’re reading this,
you’re probably expecting
a neat little description of the author.
Sorry to disappoint you,
you won’t get one.
What you will get
are the questions that haunt me,
the answers I avoid,
and the explanations
I’ve rehearsed a thousand times
in my head.
Should I begin with the secret
I’ve been hiding—
the one I’m desperate
and terrified to reveal?
You might be lucky
and uncover it.
Either way,
I wish you the best of luck.
Some of you may call me cruel,
unfeeling.
But in the kind of world I’ve lived in,
it’s better that way.
Maybe that’s why
I couldn’t cry
when my brother died.
I could have saved him.
But why would I?
It’s not like
he would have done the same for me.
Part 1 of a series.A narrative piece. Read with an open mind.
