I don’t know if I have enough heart left to give to anyone else in sharing I’m always
back at the start just trying to be myself and pretend I’m caring and it’s glaring me in
the face this stalled pace at which I’m crawling through my
own life trying not to cringe from the deep cuts of
the knife that you all call love it all feels
to me like a clifftop kiss goodbye with
a hard shove and from where I
stand it makes me wonder if I
misunderstand it what I thought
was the right way that I should but
apparently I really misunderstood
and it all makes me beg and cry out to
everyone in this part please save my heart there’s so little left of
the me that could ever believe couldn’t this
god ****** world just once let me keep a little
piece all I ask of this terrible wretched ******* lifetime
is a life that’s actually all mine let me build something and
protect it and keep it safe as my own beautiful charm safe from
the chaos and the harm am I worth so little do I count for so much less
that I should endure my heart being belittled and beaten under this much
stress I don’t even know anymore how to trust and the machine that has become
my day to day survival is so filthy with rust I just want to feel like I am a human being
with some worth and knowing deep down that I never will be, is the very worst.
Mar 8, 2013
Mar 8, 2013 at 7:51 PM UTC
I don’t know if I have enough heart left to give to anyone else in sharing I’m always
back at the start just trying to be myself and pretend I’m caring and it’s glaring me in
the face this stalled pace at which I’m crawling through my
own life trying not to cringe from the deep cuts of
the knife that you all call love it all feels
to me like a clifftop kiss goodbye with
a hard shove and from where I
stand it makes me wonder if I
misunderstand it what I thought
was the right way that I should but
apparently I really misunderstood
and it all makes me beg and cry out to
everyone in this part please save my heart there’s so little left of
the me that could ever believe couldn’t this
god ****** world just once let me keep a little
piece all I ask of this terrible wretched ******* lifetime
is a life that’s actually all mine let me build something and
protect it and keep it safe as my own beautiful charm safe from
the chaos and the harm am I worth so little do I count for so much less
that I should endure my heart being belittled and beaten under this much
stress I don’t even know anymore how to trust and the machine that has become
my day to day survival is so filthy with rust I just want to feel like I am a human being
with some worth and knowing deep down that I never will be, is the very worst.
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