I am told I was depressed during quarantine
Although I don't remember
I don't think I truly was
I was just alone
I was not truly depressed
For the first time
I think I am
Truly depressed
And I don't mean it in a pick me way
"Oh! I'm so depressed"
For the first time
I think I've forgotten how to feel
I can't make myself smile
I could blame others
But really it's all my fault
If you've been following my poetry
You'll see who I wrote about
It wasn't appreciation
It was more obsession
I really am sorry about it
I RSVPd 'NO' to a team event
I'm unsure why
I suppose it was for sleep
Though I'd rather have friends
Than sleep
I want to cry
I think that's the only way to relieve myself
But I can't
I don't have the strength to do so
I miss her, and she's not even gone
"Can we just be friends?"
No. Please no.
Did I misread everything?
No. Please no.
I swear I'm not crazy.
I'm sorry this happened to you
To me
I'm sorry that it was you
And my doing
I'm sorry it weighs down on you
And you don't even know
Because I will not tell
May 1
May 1, 2026 at 9:05 PM UTC
I am told I was depressed during quarantine
Although I don't remember
I don't think I truly was
I was just alone
I was not truly depressed
For the first time
I think I am
Truly depressed
And I don't mean it in a pick me way
"Oh! I'm so depressed"
For the first time
I think I've forgotten how to feel
I can't make myself smile
I could blame others
But really it's all my fault
If you've been following my poetry
You'll see who I wrote about
It wasn't appreciation
It was more obsession
I really am sorry about it
I RSVPd 'NO' to a team event
I'm unsure why
I suppose it was for sleep
Though I'd rather have friends
Than sleep
I want to cry
I think that's the only way to relieve myself
But I can't
I don't have the strength to do so
I miss her, and she's not even gone
"Can we just be friends?"
No. Please no.
Did I misread everything?
No. Please no.
I swear I'm not crazy.
I'm sorry this happened to you
To me
I'm sorry that it was you
And my doing
I'm sorry it weighs down on you
And you don't even know
Because I will not tell
