she asked me to write ab today’s session
ab what she said
what was going through my head
why i see myself as this double sided mirror
and why i’m so hard on myself
she asked me to write
and i never fail my assignments
so i am here to deliver
i don’t think she really understands
that theres more to me that js the eye can see
and i don’t know how to get her to see
i hate talking ab my problems
i hate my family
i hate being scared to eat food
i hate being me
so i watch others and dream of a life thats js like theirs
daydreaming that’s me
but deep down the reality is that quite possibly could never be me
i’m smart but not smart enough
i’m hard working but it’s never enough
i’m pretty but not pretty that can please society
i’m skinny but i’m not when i step near a scale
i’m funny but not when i make a non rude joke
i’m all these things that r not me
and not all these things that r me
so i watch others from my side of this double sided mirror
that way
at least for a lil
i can reflect how everyone else is being
and pretend that’s me
so if she were to ask me again
what was going through my head
it would be that there is smth more that is wrong with me
i don’t think it’s js anxiety
at least not anymore
i’m not scared that if we fix smth on the outer layer
smth new will show up
because i alr know there is smth there
i alr know that a part of me is broken
i js don’t want u to see
me
the way i do
Mar 26
Mar 26, 2026 at 12:54 AM UTC
she asked me to write ab today’s session
ab what she said
what was going through my head
why i see myself as this double sided mirror
and why i’m so hard on myself
she asked me to write
and i never fail my assignments
so i am here to deliver
i don’t think she really understands
that theres more to me that js the eye can see
and i don’t know how to get her to see
i hate talking ab my problems
i hate my family
i hate being scared to eat food
i hate being me
so i watch others and dream of a life thats js like theirs
daydreaming that’s me
but deep down the reality is that quite possibly could never be me
i’m smart but not smart enough
i’m hard working but it’s never enough
i’m pretty but not pretty that can please society
i’m skinny but i’m not when i step near a scale
i’m funny but not when i make a non rude joke
i’m all these things that r not me
and not all these things that r me
so i watch others from my side of this double sided mirror
that way
at least for a lil
i can reflect how everyone else is being
and pretend that’s me
so if she were to ask me again
what was going through my head
it would be that there is smth more that is wrong with me
i don’t think it’s js anxiety
at least not anymore
i’m not scared that if we fix smth on the outer layer
smth new will show up
because i alr know there is smth there
i alr know that a part of me is broken
i js don’t want u to see
me
the way i do
