Misguided Judgments.

The last thing I ever thought I would do was try to make you cry.

Obviously being at college made me step back and look at things.

I realized how stupid I was, how I sacrificed my loyalty to my family to try and make you smile.

I know it was wrong

You know it too

I may have meant the things that I said and I never had really wanted anyone but you to see it.

I know it was harsh

I know I made you cry

I know.

I meant what I said

I’m still mad

and I still resent you

but I made you cry

I apologize for that

My one and only mission in this life is to make people happy

To make everyone’s life easier to live

I failed that goal

So miserably that it even made me cry.

I don’t expect forgiveness

I’m not even asking for it

I just want you to know that

So please know that

I love my sister, please leave her alone.

I love my family, don’t talk about them.

I love myself. I think you get the picture.

I loved you. At least I think I did.

I can’t seem to remember why though.

It could have been your smile

your laugh

your hair

the way you acted like you didn’t care about anything

how much you reminded me of myself.

Or maybe I was just mistaken.

I like to think it was that one.

I’m sorry, just know that.

I’m sorry.

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