These words burned deep inside my soul.
The painful remnants of my heart collapsed.
Left alone for decades, like some thrown out old antique.
Left to suffer unspeakable horrors. Alone.
No one came to my side.
No hero to rescue me in any time of need.
No love to abide me.
No comforting arms to hold me, for even one minute.
For one minute was all I was asking.
The sorrow of decades gone by.
I simply requested one single moment.
As that is how alone I am.
I would take one single minute of being held.
That could sustain me a lifetime.
All I wanted to do was politely move to the next steps
I could not help but notice she stated on facebook "Love you".
She called you **** So, to be fair, I asked her if you were an item.
Yet, in your rage and defense of her or maybe yourself, you stated to me, "Wow, Thank God I never went down there!!!"
I cry every day now. Every day since. I've wept believing this is your true heart.
I will never stop loving you.
However, cruel and toxic.
A doormat is what I am to your love.
How someone would treat me like this and yet, my love grows stronger.
Maybe he needs love too.
Maybe it wasn't me.
Maybe I'm an idiot.
May 29, 2017
May 29, 2017 at 1:42 PM UTC
These words burned deep inside my soul.
The painful remnants of my heart collapsed.
Left alone for decades, like some thrown out old antique.
Left to suffer unspeakable horrors. Alone.
No one came to my side.
No hero to rescue me in any time of need.
No love to abide me.
No comforting arms to hold me, for even one minute.
For one minute was all I was asking.
The sorrow of decades gone by.
I simply requested one single moment.
As that is how alone I am.
I would take one single minute of being held.
That could sustain me a lifetime.
All I wanted to do was politely move to the next steps
I could not help but notice she stated on facebook "Love you".
She called you **** So, to be fair, I asked her if you were an item.
Yet, in your rage and defense of her or maybe yourself, you stated to me, "Wow, Thank God I never went down there!!!"
I cry every day now. Every day since. I've wept believing this is your true heart.
I will never stop loving you.
However, cruel and toxic.
A doormat is what I am to your love.
How someone would treat me like this and yet, my love grows stronger.
Maybe he needs love too.
Maybe it wasn't me.
Maybe I'm an idiot.
