it’s 3:09am on thursday
another romcom novel
lies
in my
lap
racing through it as i read
the same kinds of stories
yes, i know the ending, because
i need the
happy
ever
all-the-things
i guess i am no better
since i am a sucker for all the sap
i zip past the plotted out pain
skim through the lines
and find the ink-to-page artifice of love
it’s not real, yes, but
fills an ache-
(though never truly really fills)
of what you left behind
and how you’ve ruined me
at best
the dopamine
or cathartic thrill
dies down by the very last
but i always pick
back up these books
knowing my HEA is coming
just
around
the
bend
do i still believe it’s coming?
is happily really
meant for
me?
or is it just for the select few?
i revived this space
and came back
really just to say-
i heard you kissed
another girl
the night before
your wedding day
Jun 6, 2025
Jun 6, 2025 at 3:24 AM UTC
it’s 3:09am on thursday
another romcom novel
lies
in my
lap
racing through it as i read
the same kinds of stories
yes, i know the ending, because
i need the
happy
ever
all-the-things
i guess i am no better
since i am a sucker for all the sap
i zip past the plotted out pain
skim through the lines
and find the ink-to-page artifice of love
it’s not real, yes, but
fills an ache-
(though never truly really fills)
of what you left behind
and how you’ve ruined me
at best
the dopamine
or cathartic thrill
dies down by the very last
but i always pick
back up these books
knowing my HEA is coming
just
around
the
bend
do i still believe it’s coming?
is happily really
meant for
me?
or is it just for the select few?
i revived this space
and came back
really just to say-
i heard you kissed
another girl
the night before
your wedding day
postscript—
it was not our wedding day
