Inner Demon, Where's the Treatment?

rigoberto-carrasco Poems

Rest in peace my self esteem I'v lost the courage to chase those dreams Memories of days past, lines blurring, they went by so **** fast When you wonder about life, about the grand scheme behind it you try to find it, define it, make sense of the senseless what can I create from nothing I guess I'm bluffing when I say something sincere like that there's sentient life far away, we're talking light years all I can really do is adhere to the rules, tell people about my high school reminisce and wish things were the way they used to be I just wanna be free, go out and see what's out there go to the fair, play with your hair, stop and stare at those eyes how could I ever lie about what you meant to me your mind and soul were nearly as vast as the sea to me I wanted to dive deep, be a creep and know all there is about you but what can I do now that you're gone I feel so alone, staying at home, afraid of the unknown I still checked my cracked phone for texts from you the last words I'd ever see were etched onto a headstone, gravestone, can I atone for what I did with this precious stone? No. Because you're gone and that's that. I can shout that I miss you, wish I'd kissed you harder please just one more dance?