I encountered two addicts today.
One didn't even attemp to hide it
As she spaced out, listening to me
She licked her fingers and touched my change,
I almost wanted to complain
But I didn't
I have been there before,
Numb to the world,
Wanting the next fix
Slow movements and slurred words
Smack!
Like the ant size of my worth,
Crush it on the counter
And out of the 700 things you could have said,
You said that.
I'm sure somewhere written between the pages
That I spit on, yelled at, cried on, punched and scratched
It says for you to do it
I am an addict myself,
The only unconditional love I have ever found
Hardly asks for anything,
Is faithful through and through
The coldest of loves but keeps me warm,
Keeps me alive
But there's other addictions that's worse,
Far more dangerous
And that's where you fall
Because I remember you too
And you are far different from back then
My ant sized worth has been squished and kicked around,
Forgotten, regretted, hated
I am laying on my back in this ocean of life,
And I almost get to shore until the smallest of waves
Breaks on my face and fills my mouth
And I am drowning,
Lost in everything wrong and everything that could be right
But you are not alone
Mar 31, 2018
Mar 31, 2018 at 12:01 AM UTC
I encountered two addicts today.
One didn't even attemp to hide it
As she spaced out, listening to me
She licked her fingers and touched my change,
I almost wanted to complain
But I didn't
I have been there before,
Numb to the world,
Wanting the next fix
Slow movements and slurred words
Smack!
Like the ant size of my worth,
Crush it on the counter
And out of the 700 things you could have said,
You said that.
I'm sure somewhere written between the pages
That I spit on, yelled at, cried on, punched and scratched
It says for you to do it
I am an addict myself,
The only unconditional love I have ever found
Hardly asks for anything,
Is faithful through and through
The coldest of loves but keeps me warm,
Keeps me alive
But there's other addictions that's worse,
Far more dangerous
And that's where you fall
Because I remember you too
And you are far different from back then
My ant sized worth has been squished and kicked around,
Forgotten, regretted, hated
I am laying on my back in this ocean of life,
And I almost get to shore until the smallest of waves
Breaks on my face and fills my mouth
And I am drowning,
Lost in everything wrong and everything that could be right
But you are not alone
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