It's getting colder.
darker days are brewing and my mind is about to explode.
Everyday I try to fight this monster.
Something...nay, someone I never wanter to become.
It's getting darker. Im furious.
Not at you, nor her. But myself.
Everyone is a monster to someone.
But you're not convinced I am that monster.
How? Look at what I destroyed.
This isn't fair on you.
This isn't what I wanted.
Im sorry for the trouble.
Im sorry I am burning bridges I built.
I have become death. The destroyer of worlds.
You should hate me for what Im doing.
I know I would.
We are all monsters to someone.
But by refusing to be yours, I have to become my own.
I am my own monster.
I lost myself in this war.
A war I never thought I would fight.
It was never about winning or losing.
As there is still no answer.
But this is about the outcome.
Who we are after this fight.
Can I live with it?
Can I go on with what I did?
I am able to move past this.
But I've hurt you. Ive destroyed you.
Im not pure. Im sorry.
All I can do is apologise.
I have become what I have been fighting this past year.
I am my own monster.
I don't have fangs,
I don't have claws.
I just don't feel the way you do.
Nov 7, 2019
Nov 7, 2019 at 5:27 AM UTC
It's getting colder.
darker days are brewing and my mind is about to explode.
Everyday I try to fight this monster.
Something...nay, someone I never wanter to become.
It's getting darker. Im furious.
Not at you, nor her. But myself.
Everyone is a monster to someone.
But you're not convinced I am that monster.
How? Look at what I destroyed.
This isn't fair on you.
This isn't what I wanted.
Im sorry for the trouble.
Im sorry I am burning bridges I built.
I have become death. The destroyer of worlds.
You should hate me for what Im doing.
I know I would.
We are all monsters to someone.
But by refusing to be yours, I have to become my own.
I am my own monster.
I lost myself in this war.
A war I never thought I would fight.
It was never about winning or losing.
As there is still no answer.
But this is about the outcome.
Who we are after this fight.
Can I live with it?
Can I go on with what I did?
I am able to move past this.
But I've hurt you. Ive destroyed you.
Im not pure. Im sorry.
All I can do is apologise.
I have become what I have been fighting this past year.
I am my own monster.
I don't have fangs,
I don't have claws.
I just don't feel the way you do.
