These tears are longing to fall,
And during turbulent times like these I desire a release.
I thought I was done,
But the weight of my situation continues to follow me.
As bad as I want all of this to be gone,
I know that this will not go away easily.
Money is tight.
I have to work harder than ever to stay in school,
Because now higher education and debt are synonymous,
And money is hard to find.
My relationship introduces questions like:
Why isn’t this like the last?
Will this last?
And many other questions I shouldn’t ask right now.
During sad nights like this when I want you here…
I have to face reality that you live far away,
The reality that our schedules do not, and will not match up,
And sadly, when I need you I know you are asleep.
Is this even real?
Is this all really real?
I was taught if you do everything right then things will be fine.
Well, I’ve done everything right…
I’ve dotted my I’s and crossed my T’s,
and yet things haven't turned out fine.
All in all, my stress never takes a vacation.
No release for me.
- j.m.