10 days was all it took
To plan the way I'd go
One last kiss to those I love,
Made sure they didn't know
I laughed, I smiled, I cooked, I cleaned
While my soul was softly weeping
Cause even in those memories made
All joyful moments were fleeting.
And on the day where time was up
I finished at my workplace
I said goodbye, I kissed my sis
And smiled down at her face
I got in my car and turned it on
with knowledge I wouldn't return
And as a tear slid down my face
My stomach began to churn.
Feb 15, 2021
Feb 15, 2021 at 7:32 PM UTC
10 days was all it took
To plan the way I'd go
One last kiss to those I love,
Made sure they didn't know
I laughed, I smiled, I cooked, I cleaned
While my soul was softly weeping
Cause even in those memories made
All joyful moments were fleeting.
And on the day where time was up
I finished at my workplace
I said goodbye, I kissed my sis
And smiled down at her face
I got in my car and turned it on
with knowledge I wouldn't return
And as a tear slid down my face
My stomach began to churn.
This was written in March 2019. And 10 days later, i had a failed suicide attempt. And boy am i glad i failed. Much love to you all.
