i curse myself
for the anxiety
i feel for those near
chomping
crystalline version of that
which makes us up
the cold that kills
or at least affirms death
for the stress
felt for the tears
shed
in times when i am away
or at least when
were apart
pulled in all directions
disoriented
for the swears
i murmur chilled
leaning
from the window
and the cold May breeze
blows back in
last weeks last smoke
two years ****** growth
can no more capture
the shameful smell
for the death
that arrives on my door
sandwiched
between what i need to leave
and what can open doors
door stop wedged firmly
needs to be withdrawn
call it what it is
ego
the curse
that lies between
choice observation and opportunity
im teaching myself
to ignore and adopt
curl up next to
failure finality
and future
without regret
regret?
to spit in its face
arms akimbo
nose neptunes way
grinning
and i pray
holding your hand
May 3, 2013
May 3, 2013 at 3:01 AM UTC
i curse myself
for the anxiety
i feel for those near
chomping
crystalline version of that
which makes us up
the cold that kills
or at least affirms death
for the stress
felt for the tears
shed
in times when i am away
or at least when
were apart
pulled in all directions
disoriented
for the swears
i murmur chilled
leaning
from the window
and the cold May breeze
blows back in
last weeks last smoke
two years ****** growth
can no more capture
the shameful smell
for the death
that arrives on my door
sandwiched
between what i need to leave
and what can open doors
door stop wedged firmly
needs to be withdrawn
call it what it is
ego
the curse
that lies between
choice observation and opportunity
im teaching myself
to ignore and adopt
curl up next to
failure finality
and future
without regret
regret?
to spit in its face
arms akimbo
nose neptunes way
grinning
and i pray
holding your hand
i was talking about ice crunching silly
