lack of rhythm keeps the music from flowing,
keeps the anger wrapped tight
and unleashes the screams of anxiety.
It's such a simple thing to want
such an easy thing to do
until you break down in tears
realizing just how pitiful it is.
I just want to play a melody
something beautiful,
hours each day
of nonstop practice
each ending with
the smashing of the keys
and the screams from my throat.
It all ends with tears
as I do not understand-
spending years on the same melody
yet it only follows one tune
How much longer will it go on?
When will this need to play a melody stop?
for until then
those sweet tunes bring tears to my eyes
in the knowledge
that I try every day
week after week
month after month
year after year
and those different tunes only blend
to a jumbled mess of one
due to my shaking
aching hands.
I just want to play a melody.
Why is that so hard?
It's the same song over and over
and though I try my hardest
it comes out the same
each time
and ends with
my screams and tears,
due to these shaking hands.
It is a never ending turmoil,
that breaks my untuned heart.
Sep 30, 2013
Sep 30, 2013 at 5:52 PM UTC
lack of rhythm keeps the music from flowing,
keeps the anger wrapped tight
and unleashes the screams of anxiety.
It's such a simple thing to want
such an easy thing to do
until you break down in tears
realizing just how pitiful it is.
I just want to play a melody
something beautiful,
hours each day
of nonstop practice
each ending with
the smashing of the keys
and the screams from my throat.
It all ends with tears
as I do not understand-
spending years on the same melody
yet it only follows one tune
How much longer will it go on?
When will this need to play a melody stop?
for until then
those sweet tunes bring tears to my eyes
in the knowledge
that I try every day
week after week
month after month
year after year
and those different tunes only blend
to a jumbled mess of one
due to my shaking
aching hands.
I just want to play a melody.
Why is that so hard?
It's the same song over and over
and though I try my hardest
it comes out the same
each time
and ends with
my screams and tears,
due to these shaking hands.
It is a never ending turmoil,
that breaks my untuned heart.
