Even though I've been writing for years
(not that it's any better than when I started)
the title still holds true.
Words don't spill out,
thoughts don't process
like they used to.
Pieces need second checks for meaning,
thirds for grammar,
and a fourth for meaning.
Maybe it's the absence of physical affection;
certain chemicals aren't being triggered to release in my brain
but I decided if I couldn't keep my unspoken promises,
if I can't touch with a deep understanding of love
I will not touch at all.
It was shocking,
the impact one night could have
and so I have not had a second try
(or a six or seventh if we're counting).
I let the words of Thom Yorke
and Ezra Koenig say all that I cannot.
"Slowly we unfurl as lotus flowers
'Cause all I want is the moon upon a stick
Just to see what if, just to see what is
I can't kick your habit
Just to feed your fast ballooning head
Listen to your heart"
Mar 24, 2014
Mar 24, 2014 at 11:15 PM UTC
Even though I've been writing for years
(not that it's any better than when I started)
the title still holds true.
Words don't spill out,
thoughts don't process
like they used to.
Pieces need second checks for meaning,
thirds for grammar,
and a fourth for meaning.
Maybe it's the absence of physical affection;
certain chemicals aren't being triggered to release in my brain
but I decided if I couldn't keep my unspoken promises,
if I can't touch with a deep understanding of love
I will not touch at all.
It was shocking,
the impact one night could have
and so I have not had a second try
(or a six or seventh if we're counting).
I let the words of Thom Yorke
and Ezra Koenig say all that I cannot.
"Slowly we unfurl as lotus flowers
'Cause all I want is the moon upon a stick
Just to see what if, just to see what is
I can't kick your habit
Just to feed your fast ballooning head
Listen to your heart"
Quotations from Radiohead's "Lotus Flower"
give it a listen
