i felt it tying weights
to everything that used to matter,
everything that brought me joy.
i looked in the mirror and smiled,
telling myself i was fine.
i looked in the mirror and smiled
at two rows of black soot,
crawling with greedy bugs,
that I used to call pearly-whites.
i felt my nerves and bones and muscles and ligaments
snap apart and wrap themselves
into each other and it hurt so much.
i thought it would never get to me.
i thought one day i would wake up and be okay,
but i never learned how to stop lusting
after dreams not made for me.
Feb 15, 2016
Feb 15, 2016 at 7:31 PM UTC
i felt it tying weights
to everything that used to matter,
everything that brought me joy.
i looked in the mirror and smiled,
telling myself i was fine.
i looked in the mirror and smiled
at two rows of black soot,
crawling with greedy bugs,
that I used to call pearly-whites.
i felt my nerves and bones and muscles and ligaments
snap apart and wrap themselves
into each other and it hurt so much.
i thought it would never get to me.
i thought one day i would wake up and be okay,
but i never learned how to stop lusting
after dreams not made for me.
