I once had a four bedroom condominium
For 12 years
Before I sold it
The first 11 years or so
I slept there twice alone
It was beautifully decorated
Like a hollow showpiece
Everything was perfect
Except me
I had get togethers with others
Friends and family both
Card parties, Book club,
Professional meetings…
But after everyone left
I cleaned and left too
No one ever knew
The extent of my compulsion
No man ever slept there
When asked, I said no
Then added,
Please take me to your home
And they always did
And the reason why…
I left my husband
And our beautiful home
Even kept paying the mortgage
But I punished myself for leaving
My punishment was my walk alone
I still loved him
I still do even now
He didn’t do anything wrong
I would stay the night with him
Once in a while
Which sounds confusing, I know
But I deeply hurt a good man
And I had to atone
By loving him unconditionally
So my punishment was a condominium
Decorated and protected
A gated community
Monitored by security
And the two nights I slept there?
I pretended I wasn’t alone
All I had to do was reach back
And he would be there
Ready to hold me
The day he got married
I was finally free
He tells me she is good to him
But his family refuses to love her
Because they love me
Dec 11, 2025
Dec 11, 2025 at 8:01 PM UTC
I once had a four bedroom condominium
For 12 years
Before I sold it
The first 11 years or so
I slept there twice alone
It was beautifully decorated
Like a hollow showpiece
Everything was perfect
Except me
I had get togethers with others
Friends and family both
Card parties, Book club,
Professional meetings…
But after everyone left
I cleaned and left too
No one ever knew
The extent of my compulsion
No man ever slept there
When asked, I said no
Then added,
Please take me to your home
And they always did
And the reason why…
I left my husband
And our beautiful home
Even kept paying the mortgage
But I punished myself for leaving
My punishment was my walk alone
I still loved him
I still do even now
He didn’t do anything wrong
I would stay the night with him
Once in a while
Which sounds confusing, I know
But I deeply hurt a good man
And I had to atone
By loving him unconditionally
So my punishment was a condominium
Decorated and protected
A gated community
Monitored by security
And the two nights I slept there?
I pretended I wasn’t alone
All I had to do was reach back
And he would be there
Ready to hold me
The day he got married
I was finally free
He tells me she is good to him
But his family refuses to love her
Because they love me