Another moment wasted in waiting
Calls back to me as I sit here,
Telling me it's not too far off,
Telling me I am cloudier than the skies,
Just as humid as the windows,
And just as cold as the air.
I wasted so much time waiting,
Traveled across the world and back again,
Waiting for you to love me again.
Being broken was my only friend—
For a decade, one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten years.
I reminisced, wished, and longed for
The days we made love all day for,
The moments we whispered, "I love you more."
I broke down and let my shadow explore,
Devoured what was left of myself,
Gave myself away—a *****
Took myself around on tour,
Always looking to get my fill,
Yet always feeling empty.
Nothing can replace you.
Drinking couldn't erase you.
I tried one last time to chase you,
But you're in love, and I wouldn’t dare entice you.
My pretty words were born to chase you.
I will chase you in dreams,
In my words, forever.
I will love you forever,
Despite the spite you spat
At the news that I was back.
I told you that was my closure,
Not knowing it was a lie—
Perhaps a type of closure,
To stop the pursuit in this life.
But I will love you forever,
And find you in the next life.