It's been years since we met,
Still whenever the moon rises in the sky,
your face finds me back.
It's not a memory for me
but a nightmare,
to disturb my peace.
You are not connected to me anymore,
But still nostalgia feels like
a fresh wound.
It takes me in that era again,
when you used to laugh at my pain.
It's not like i never tried.
I tried to let it go, I tried to let it go,
But how do i make
the insecurities go?
the fear you planted in me,
the judgement you taught me
for me,
how do I make it go?
They say success heals you.
They say reaching the top helps you forget.
But no matter how high i climb, the fear you planted,
rides on my spine.
I know you forgot me.
Forgot that you had a classmate like me.
I know you don't even realise what you did to me ?
But just tell me one thing,
How does forgetting works,
When the wound is still fresh? How do I forgive when it still feels so fresh?
They said that it was your childish act. You were clumsy and an innocent lad.
I wonder how they still defend you,
but never look at me?
I just need to ask,
what about me?
What about the trauma
I had to grow up with?
What about the morass
I sink into everyday ?
What about the look
I give myself everyday?
You are gone
but your words never left.
They always ring in my head,
Like a punishment i didn't deserve.
That punishment sounds so cruel that death sounds more peaceful.
You made me feel disgusting
Not once,
But deeply,
every single day,
When you were present in my life,
Or even, when you are not.
They say,
"It was childhood. Let it go."
But how do I let go
of a heart you damaged
before it learned how to protect itself?
How do I erase the shame
you stitched in my heart,
for the smile,
my father admires the most
But now he rarely gets a chance.
How do I forget
Being made to feel pathetic
for simply existing?
How do I erase the memories
of me praying
to end it all?
I know you forgot me
But tell me, how do I forget
the fear that doesn't let me sleep ?
Why do I still shiver
when i hear your name?
Why does my body freeze
When i remember your face?
Why does my heart remember
What my mind wants to erase?
Tell me,
How do I forget you,
When forgetting feels like neglecting my inner child?
Tell me,
How do I erase the
stars i made on my wrist?
Tell me,
How do I end this all?
May 14
May 14, 2026 at 1:10 PM UTC
It's been years since we met,
Still whenever the moon rises in the sky,
your face finds me back.
It's not a memory for me
but a nightmare,
to disturb my peace.
You are not connected to me anymore,
But still nostalgia feels like
a fresh wound.
It takes me in that era again,
when you used to laugh at my pain.
It's not like i never tried.
I tried to let it go, I tried to let it go,
But how do i make
the insecurities go?
the fear you planted in me,
the judgement you taught me
for me,
how do I make it go?
They say success heals you.
They say reaching the top helps you forget.
But no matter how high i climb, the fear you planted,
rides on my spine.
I know you forgot me.
Forgot that you had a classmate like me.
I know you don't even realise what you did to me ?
But just tell me one thing,
How does forgetting works,
When the wound is still fresh? How do I forgive when it still feels so fresh?
They said that it was your childish act. You were clumsy and an innocent lad.
I wonder how they still defend you,
but never look at me?
I just need to ask,
what about me?
What about the trauma
I had to grow up with?
What about the morass
I sink into everyday ?
What about the look
I give myself everyday?
You are gone
but your words never left.
They always ring in my head,
Like a punishment i didn't deserve.
That punishment sounds so cruel that death sounds more peaceful.
You made me feel disgusting
Not once,
But deeply,
every single day,
When you were present in my life,
Or even, when you are not.
They say,
"It was childhood. Let it go."
But how do I let go
of a heart you damaged
before it learned how to protect itself?
How do I erase the shame
you stitched in my heart,
for the smile,
my father admires the most
But now he rarely gets a chance.
How do I forget
Being made to feel pathetic
for simply existing?
How do I erase the memories
of me praying
to end it all?
I know you forgot me
But tell me, how do I forget
the fear that doesn't let me sleep ?
Why do I still shiver
when i hear your name?
Why does my body freeze
When i remember your face?
Why does my heart remember
What my mind wants to erase?
Tell me,
How do I forget you,
When forgetting feels like neglecting my inner child?
Tell me,
How do I erase the
stars i made on my wrist?
Tell me,
How do I end this all?
It's my first time writting a full poem, I'm sorry if it's relatable, i wrote it on my bullying experience
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