I said this would not happen again
I told myself I would not let it
I said I was deserving
I said nothing less of a princess
But still
I allow him to push me around
I allow him to make me feel small
I allow him to say the things he wants because
They’re just words
They’re just jokes
They’re meant to be funny
They’re not met to be taken seriously
But I guess
The fat on my stomach told me he is not wrong
The cellulite in my thighs nodded with his words
The hair on my face agreed with every word he spoke
The slab of fat on my arm swung in agreeance
I found myself deciding my self-worth on
How many times he said I was beautiful
How many times he said he loved me
How many times he let go of my hand when people approached him
How many times he cared to open any door for me
I said I had changed
I said I was better
I said I love me
But
You broke me
You left behind a person I don't recognize
You left me
Back to square one
May 6, 2019
May 6, 2019 at 2:43 AM UTC
I said this would not happen again
I told myself I would not let it
I said I was deserving
I said nothing less of a princess
But still
I allow him to push me around
I allow him to make me feel small
I allow him to say the things he wants because
They’re just words
They’re just jokes
They’re meant to be funny
They’re not met to be taken seriously
But I guess
The fat on my stomach told me he is not wrong
The cellulite in my thighs nodded with his words
The hair on my face agreed with every word he spoke
The slab of fat on my arm swung in agreeance
I found myself deciding my self-worth on
How many times he said I was beautiful
How many times he said he loved me
How many times he let go of my hand when people approached him
How many times he cared to open any door for me
I said I had changed
I said I was better
I said I love me
But
You broke me
You left behind a person I don't recognize
You left me
Back to square one
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