I’m giving
You a night call,
To tell you
How I feel.
I’m living
At a slow crawl,
Who
Has the shot to ****
Arms crossed defence,
Haunted
Head
Of dreams.
Standing on the fence:
Faded,
Lead,
Poison-lean.
Blighted youth,
Hidden truth,
Failure to jump…
Cant jump:
Autism,
Pride problem,
No- progress.
Can’t initiate
Relationships:
Doesn’t mean
-Can’t- feel.
Does not mean
I don’t
Need
The same.
Fighting mouth breathers,
At a distance,
Who can tell?
Infected by venom,
Crippled, narcissistic
Venom.
Veins are black,
Self made
Transfusion;
Empathy stack.
Barrier.
A language
I don’t understand,
Barrier.
Never have
Comprehended,
It feels
like…
Everyone knows something
I can’t handle,
Can’t see…
Like I miss
A sense,
Everyone else-
Proficient with.
Like everyone else:
Knows
A secret
That I don’t.
What’s worse:
Is when
I pretend
To know
Everyone
Around
Acts like
I know-
But I don’t,
I never had,
Had your
Super powers…
I pretend
To read
Minds
Too…
I mimic
The language,
The body language:
Eye movement…
Eye brow shift,
Wide open arms,
Pupil dilation,
Shoulders diminished:
Insecurity.
Eye contact…
I can manipulate
These rules
For
My effect.
So I know
Other people
Can do
The same.
Most likely-
Do
All
The time
So how?
Can I trust
A single
Person…
Or what they say
With their eyes,
Maybe I should trust
The words…
ha
Sep 11, 2019
Sep 11, 2019 at 12:05 PM UTC
I’m giving
You a night call,
To tell you
How I feel.
I’m living
At a slow crawl,
Who
Has the shot to ****
Arms crossed defence,
Haunted
Head
Of dreams.
Standing on the fence:
Faded,
Lead,
Poison-lean.
Blighted youth,
Hidden truth,
Failure to jump…
Cant jump:
Autism,
Pride problem,
No- progress.
Can’t initiate
Relationships:
Doesn’t mean
-Can’t- feel.
Does not mean
I don’t
Need
The same.
Fighting mouth breathers,
At a distance,
Who can tell?
Infected by venom,
Crippled, narcissistic
Venom.
Veins are black,
Self made
Transfusion;
Empathy stack.
Barrier.
A language
I don’t understand,
Barrier.
Never have
Comprehended,
It feels
like…
Everyone knows something
I can’t handle,
Can’t see…
Like I miss
A sense,
Everyone else-
Proficient with.
Like everyone else:
Knows
A secret
That I don’t.
What’s worse:
Is when
I pretend
To know
Everyone
Around
Acts like
I know-
But I don’t,
I never had,
Had your
Super powers…
I pretend
To read
Minds
Too…
I mimic
The language,
The body language:
Eye movement…
Eye brow shift,
Wide open arms,
Pupil dilation,
Shoulders diminished:
Insecurity.
Eye contact…
I can manipulate
These rules
For
My effect.
So I know
Other people
Can do
The same.
Most likely-
Do
All
The time
So how?
Can I trust
A single
Person…
Or what they say
With their eyes,
Maybe I should trust
The words…
ha
I started working with a child with ASD. It has shaken me, I have always scored highly on the spectrum but never enough to cross the line. I have really had to try and strip back my own personality in order to try and relate to him and get on his level. This has opened up a lot of questions for myself. Has me thinking about why I am the way I am.
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