I wake up to the sound
of empty halls
’cause your not here
The phone’s not ringing like it used to.
I know that you’re not coming home.
I found myself
sitting on your empty bed.
I swear I heard your voice inside my head.
...
Then I felt the darkness come
and cover my heart…
the day the truth grew up.
I see the things I’ve done
with a different point of view
because of you.
And I’m not saying that I’m thankful.
In fact...
I’m mad as hell
because you’re not coming home.
Feb 12, 2025
Feb 12, 2025 at 9:51 AM UTC
I wake up to the sound
of empty halls
’cause your not here
The phone’s not ringing like it used to.
I know that you’re not coming home.
I found myself
sitting on your empty bed.
I swear I heard your voice inside my head.
...
Then I felt the darkness come
and cover my heart…
the day the truth grew up.
I see the things I’ve done
with a different point of view
because of you.
And I’m not saying that I’m thankful.
In fact...
I’m mad as hell
because you’re not coming home.
I was managing a halfway-house years ago. Three guys that went through the recovery facility snuck out of the house on a Monday morning a little after midnight. They were drinking and had a horrible accident, rolled their van and two did not survive. The one that came in the same day as I did 6 months prior was put on life support with a broken neck. He survived and is paralyzed from the neck down.
These three guys were very dear to me, as we grew together in this new way of life, and I can’t begin to express the storm of emotions I encountered. But I realized that is what this is for me, selfishly. A storm.
From a blog I used to write the day after the accident:
THERE WILL ALWAYS BE BRIGHTER DAYS AFTER THE RAIN WASHES THE PAIN AWAY
02/26/14
Today I woke up and talked with a few clients at the facility before going to work. I genuinely listened to what each person had to say. I saw my fiance and when I looked her in the eyes, I cherished that light in her eyes I fell in love with, My father called me and I didn’t get off the phone until both of us had run out of things to say. I felt more alive today than I have in I don’t know how long.
This has been a tragic shake in my personal world, but it has also been a great eye opener for me. For today, that does not have to be my outcome. I will cling to each moment I am granted as best I can. I am mourning for the families of my brothers. May angels lead them in.