My heart is not a room for rent
Or helping hand for hire
Not a bundle of hay or stack of sticks
To blow down or set on fire
And for that I am so grateful
My walls erected high
So far the top not visible
Bricks reaching past the sky
I am not honey melting on your tongue
My body is not an ocean in which for you to drown
I may make you feel like you are on cloud nine
That just means you have further to fall down
I am not your once-upon-a-time
No longer believe in fairytales
Wish I could be your pussycat
But I am a monster with horns and scales
My affection is not a sunset
Have no glow in which for you to bask
I want so badly to love you like you deserve
Too incompetent to accomplish that task
My time is not a rolling wheel
Spinning forward sure and straight
It is a large looming labyrinth
Impossible to navigate
My happiness is not a prize you can win
Although I wish it were that way
Smiles breifly graze my face in your presence
Why can't one find the determination to stay?
My company doesn't play a melody
Loyalty is not a song
Just a sequence of sad lyrics serenaded
But the notes all come out wrong
My soul is not a shooting range
Target not painted on my back
Yet feel as if at any moment
I will be suddenly under attack
My feelings are not a falling star
Shooting from the sky only for you
Nor are they dandelions or eyelashes
I won't make your wishes come true
My attention is a turning top
Twisting and spinning all over the place
I'll make you so dizzy you can't even walk
Then you'll fall right onto your face
My care is a consuming cancer
Killing every last cell
You're better off without my disease
Stay away and your health will stay well
My mind is an active volcano
Over and over erupts with no warning
Sometimes rage bubbles up from within
I can't stop the molten lava from forming
My companionship is a sleepless night
Kept up by thoughts racing in your head
Questions fighting with each other
Unless I am with you in bed
My devotion is a heavy black cloak
Worn like a ball and chain
Weighing down shoulders like sandbags
I don't think you can handle the strain
My efforts are fistfuls of sand
Slipping through your fragile fingers
Gripping so tightly that when you are done
Only a few wayward grains linger
My adoration is a roulette table
Risk getting hurt by my behavior
Yet you gamble anyways despite the fact
That the odds aren't in your favor
My compliments are Band-Aids
To cover wounds inflicted in haste
You'll get cut by words so sharp
I carelessly misplaced
My desire is a running faucet
Full blast with no way to turn it down
Which means eventually if in my proximity
The sink will fill and you will drown
My intimacy is a roller-coaster
Ascending high and dipping low
There will be moments I let my guard fall
But I also harbor secrets you'll never know
I will remain suspended in your throat
A lump too large to swallow
Too tough to chew to pieces
So your stomach still is hollow
My love is thunder and lightning
A storm that never ceases
No matter how calming and comforting you are
The downpour only ever increases
Apr 13, 2021
Apr 13, 2021 at 5:24 PM UTC
My heart is not a room for rent
Or helping hand for hire
Not a bundle of hay or stack of sticks
To blow down or set on fire
And for that I am so grateful
My walls erected high
So far the top not visible
Bricks reaching past the sky
I am not honey melting on your tongue
My body is not an ocean in which for you to drown
I may make you feel like you are on cloud nine
That just means you have further to fall down
I am not your once-upon-a-time
No longer believe in fairytales
Wish I could be your pussycat
But I am a monster with horns and scales
My affection is not a sunset
Have no glow in which for you to bask
I want so badly to love you like you deserve
Too incompetent to accomplish that task
My time is not a rolling wheel
Spinning forward sure and straight
It is a large looming labyrinth
Impossible to navigate
My happiness is not a prize you can win
Although I wish it were that way
Smiles breifly graze my face in your presence
Why can't one find the determination to stay?
My company doesn't play a melody
Loyalty is not a song
Just a sequence of sad lyrics serenaded
But the notes all come out wrong
My soul is not a shooting range
Target not painted on my back
Yet feel as if at any moment
I will be suddenly under attack
My feelings are not a falling star
Shooting from the sky only for you
Nor are they dandelions or eyelashes
I won't make your wishes come true
My attention is a turning top
Twisting and spinning all over the place
I'll make you so dizzy you can't even walk
Then you'll fall right onto your face
My care is a consuming cancer
Killing every last cell
You're better off without my disease
Stay away and your health will stay well
My mind is an active volcano
Over and over erupts with no warning
Sometimes rage bubbles up from within
I can't stop the molten lava from forming
My companionship is a sleepless night
Kept up by thoughts racing in your head
Questions fighting with each other
Unless I am with you in bed
My devotion is a heavy black cloak
Worn like a ball and chain
Weighing down shoulders like sandbags
I don't think you can handle the strain
My efforts are fistfuls of sand
Slipping through your fragile fingers
Gripping so tightly that when you are done
Only a few wayward grains linger
My adoration is a roulette table
Risk getting hurt by my behavior
Yet you gamble anyways despite the fact
That the odds aren't in your favor
My compliments are Band-Aids
To cover wounds inflicted in haste
You'll get cut by words so sharp
I carelessly misplaced
My desire is a running faucet
Full blast with no way to turn it down
Which means eventually if in my proximity
The sink will fill and you will drown
My intimacy is a roller-coaster
Ascending high and dipping low
There will be moments I let my guard fall
But I also harbor secrets you'll never know
I will remain suspended in your throat
A lump too large to swallow
Too tough to chew to pieces
So your stomach still is hollow
My love is thunder and lightning
A storm that never ceases
No matter how calming and comforting you are
The downpour only ever increases
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