Awake too early once again
Afraid to read myself to sleep
Because of badness always hiding
In the bushes of my dreamlands.
Filthy restrooms, windows where there should be walls
People that don’t seem to like me
Things I need and cannot find
My life’s work an apology.
Tortured pets and wounded hopes
Mazes made of halls and stairwells
How fast I can’t run away
From dangers with their faces hidden.
Can I drive on narrow rails
And not fall to the canyon floor?
What happened to the coins I found-
All mine for the collecting.
Who is it I’m letting down
As I discover that I’m late
And all that should have been arranged
Is still locked in the closet.
Who are all the nameless faces
Everywhere not helping me
But mostly getting in the way
Of what I need to finish.
Wide awake before the dawn
I stumble from one nightmare
Hoping not to find another
When I go crash upon the sofa.
ljm
Nov 14, 2023
Nov 14, 2023 at 4:49 PM UTC
Awake too early once again
Afraid to read myself to sleep
Because of badness always hiding
In the bushes of my dreamlands.
Filthy restrooms, windows where there should be walls
People that don’t seem to like me
Things I need and cannot find
My life’s work an apology.
Tortured pets and wounded hopes
Mazes made of halls and stairwells
How fast I can’t run away
From dangers with their faces hidden.
Can I drive on narrow rails
And not fall to the canyon floor?
What happened to the coins I found-
All mine for the collecting.
Who is it I’m letting down
As I discover that I’m late
And all that should have been arranged
Is still locked in the closet.
Who are all the nameless faces
Everywhere not helping me
But mostly getting in the way
Of what I need to finish.
Wide awake before the dawn
I stumble from one nightmare
Hoping not to find another
When I go crash upon the sofa.
ljm
This may be a re-post. It's from 2012 and it's happening all over again.