I was invited,
She was dressed in red,
A long sleeve blouse
to hide
the upper arm gills,
Cuts inflicted with
perfect knife skills,
Invited by the friend
of a friend's friend,
That never slowed her down.
She appeared before me,
Inviting me to her bed,
When I said, "Hello"
She was wounded and insulted
and told me to go.
When I started to leave,
She lay on the bed,
Threatening suicide
if I left.
She held me in high esteem
or so she said,
When I came forward
she told me to "drop dead. "
It's a black and white world
in her head
with no hues or colors
but dripping dread
it's what happens
with trauma's invalidation,
No boundaries, no barriers
rip tides running
takes her under.
Everything changes in a
moment
from tears to rage
and back again.
"I'm warning you," she said.
A gut check,
I thought I was up
to the task,
When she was silent,
I just had to ask,
"Is there anything I
can do to help? "
She jumped out the window
made a mad dash.
I sat on the curb
to consider my fate
smoke my last cigarette
she had taken my pack.
I fell into my shoes,
Staring,
Waiting for one of them
to move.
"I love you sweetheart" she said,
"You'd better go,
I love you sweetheart
don't go away.
I love you sweetheart
stay here - no not
there
over here. "
A dancing puppet,
I learned to love her truly.
I made the moves,
Learned acceptance, too.
Then she saw you.
I returned from the borderline
a little less smug
not so refined,
Now late at night
when anxiety has passed,
She comes into my mind,
I toss and turn
fall off the bed,
I don't know if she's
alive or dead
in
heaven or hell,
A test for all those
who think they know love.
If you fail, you pass,
If you pass you fail.
Beware of uninvited guests
dressed in red.
Feb 5, 2015
Feb 5, 2015 at 10:33 AM UTC
I was invited,
She was dressed in red,
A long sleeve blouse
to hide
the upper arm gills,
Cuts inflicted with
perfect knife skills,
Invited by the friend
of a friend's friend,
That never slowed her down.
She appeared before me,
Inviting me to her bed,
When I said, "Hello"
She was wounded and insulted
and told me to go.
When I started to leave,
She lay on the bed,
Threatening suicide
if I left.
She held me in high esteem
or so she said,
When I came forward
she told me to "drop dead. "
It's a black and white world
in her head
with no hues or colors
but dripping dread
it's what happens
with trauma's invalidation,
No boundaries, no barriers
rip tides running
takes her under.
Everything changes in a
moment
from tears to rage
and back again.
"I'm warning you," she said.
A gut check,
I thought I was up
to the task,
When she was silent,
I just had to ask,
"Is there anything I
can do to help? "
She jumped out the window
made a mad dash.
I sat on the curb
to consider my fate
smoke my last cigarette
she had taken my pack.
I fell into my shoes,
Staring,
Waiting for one of them
to move.
"I love you sweetheart" she said,
"You'd better go,
I love you sweetheart
don't go away.
I love you sweetheart
stay here - no not
there
over here. "
A dancing puppet,
I learned to love her truly.
I made the moves,
Learned acceptance, too.
Then she saw you.
I returned from the borderline
a little less smug
not so refined,
Now late at night
when anxiety has passed,
She comes into my mind,
I toss and turn
fall off the bed,
I don't know if she's
alive or dead
in
heaven or hell,
A test for all those
who think they know love.
If you fail, you pass,
If you pass you fail.
Beware of uninvited guests
dressed in red.
