I prayed and hope for it
I have sacrificed my time for it
But when I got it, I felt nothing
I heard "congratulations"
Such words felt nothing
Just sounds the tongue twisted
They don't know me, maybe that's why
I felt no genuine happiness
Rather I felt deep guilt.
Aug 26, 2024
Aug 26, 2024 at 8:49 PM UTC
I prayed and hope for it
I have sacrificed my time for it
But when I got it, I felt nothing
I heard "congratulations"
Such words felt nothing
Just sounds the tongue twisted
They don't know me, maybe that's why
I felt no genuine happiness
Rather I felt deep guilt.
I recently passed my board exam. I prayed and hoped for it. I saw my name in the list of passers, but I felt nothing. I studied for a long time.
When I passed, I was congratulated, but I don't know them. They didn't know how I struggled.
I wasn't able to celebrate yet. Regardless, I should be happy. I don't know why, but I just feel guilty. I just wanted to let this out. Maybe, I'll give my self time to process everything.