little things
like feeling greasy
uneven feet
or cracking knuckles
these little habits are the part of me
that i hate the most
i touch my hair
i scratch my skin until i bleed
people think i'm on meth
because my skin doesn't fit
there are invisible bugs
everywhere
i always wash my hands
i have to start on my left foot
and end on my left
here i sit
covered in habits
in anxieties and pains
my fucking brain
hates me