i wish i could turn the pain into something beautiful like i used to be able to. but i can't find the words anymore. i can't find the energy. at times i can barely even get out of bed, let alone pick up a pen. i try to write, but it never feels good enough. i never feel good enough. everything hurts, and not in a poetic way. it just ******* hurts.
May 3, 2016
May 3, 2016 at 1:15 AM UTC
i wish i could turn the pain into something beautiful like i used to be able to. but i can't find the words anymore. i can't find the energy. at times i can barely even get out of bed, let alone pick up a pen. i try to write, but it never feels good enough. i never feel good enough. everything hurts, and not in a poetic way. it just ******* hurts.
written 1/18/16
