I’m a few hours
and minutes
and seconds
away from adding a year
to my relatively irrelevant age
and I contemplate the complexities
of such a small number.
Nineteen.
Legally an adult,
but not nearly ready
to enter the world
on my own.
I cannot even fathom
braving the hallways of
horrendous high school
or
supporting myself and
being on time for my insurance
all while balancing a career
I’m stuck in the middle
of this whirlwind
of emotions and numbers
and candles and time
and homework and paychecks
and everything else
that comes with the titles of
student and teenager
and adult and employee.
It’s minutes before
I can blow out the candles
on eighteen
but I also extinguish another bit
of dependence.
*August 10, 2014
9:13:43 PM*
Aug 11, 2014
Aug 11, 2014 at 12:17 AM UTC
I’m a few hours
and minutes
and seconds
away from adding a year
to my relatively irrelevant age
and I contemplate the complexities
of such a small number.
Nineteen.
Legally an adult,
but not nearly ready
to enter the world
on my own.
I cannot even fathom
braving the hallways of
horrendous high school
or
supporting myself and
being on time for my insurance
all while balancing a career
I’m stuck in the middle
of this whirlwind
of emotions and numbers
and candles and time
and homework and paychecks
and everything else
that comes with the titles of
student and teenager
and adult and employee.
It’s minutes before
I can blow out the candles
on eighteen
but I also extinguish another bit
of dependence.
*August 10, 2014
9:13:43 PM*