i've done a bad thing i know i shouldn't give songs to others that you gave to me but i want the words to mean different
things now like our lives did when we split i think about you all the time and especially your teeth and your taste. you're
a reference point, youre the top of a flow chart you spin like a top and i don't have to guts to make it stop. i can't find
your letters i can't find your poems maybe i threw them out to find better homes. like i threw you out to find a better
bone. oh how foolish was i but how wise i see now. better to get it all out and done before i only had myself to cling to.
oh it's so stupid i do look for you i do i've been settling all this time my god but i'll never have you again. we said
we'd meet in our 20s by chance and resume. my second decade has just begun and i'm already holding my breath, but someone
else is holding yours. you wouldn't understand my teeth are yellow. im the top of the cons list, i know, dear, i know. i
left you for me and i ******* us all over. cant we just sit down and talk about this? would you hate me if i were a
character in your books? would you make me smell bad? winter's coming and that's what you smell like. a few months out of
every year, you come back and i can't touch you. like a dog searching for the body, i come so ******* close, a scrap of
your shirt in my mouth. then spring comes and i'm thrown off the scent, pacing back and forth for nine more months.