I'll trawl the squalor, if you like,
stick blinkers on to hide the fact
that my life has so far been a charmed one.
I can conjure a face,
small, forgotten
black against a duststorm sky -
There's your poverty for you,
And yes, I was there
And sure, I smelt the days old sweat
and can remember hunger as a curiosity
The boy's name is known to me
but I won't share it
Because he was real
but I missed his reality
and I have no right to it.
***** hands notwithstanding
I was just a tourist,
a passing mote of dust
in his drought-stricken life.
I was there for me
collecting picturesque snapshots
which would inform my return
to an undeserved comfort
(but only slightly).
To say he was important,
totemic, symbolic,
is false.
I remember him, that's all -
My boys,
my clean, happy,
here-now boys
eclipse that shadow in every respect.
An honourable assertion
only in that it is true;
and a brief regret that I made no contact
flickers out before
a blaze of contentment,
a bedrock of good fortune
with little to offer
the vicarious seeker
of hard-won wisdom.
Dec 27, 2011
Dec 27, 2011 at 4:31 PM UTC
I'll trawl the squalor, if you like,
stick blinkers on to hide the fact
that my life has so far been a charmed one.
I can conjure a face,
small, forgotten
black against a duststorm sky -
There's your poverty for you,
And yes, I was there
And sure, I smelt the days old sweat
and can remember hunger as a curiosity
The boy's name is known to me
but I won't share it
Because he was real
but I missed his reality
and I have no right to it.
***** hands notwithstanding
I was just a tourist,
a passing mote of dust
in his drought-stricken life.
I was there for me
collecting picturesque snapshots
which would inform my return
to an undeserved comfort
(but only slightly).
To say he was important,
totemic, symbolic,
is false.
I remember him, that's all -
My boys,
my clean, happy,
here-now boys
eclipse that shadow in every respect.
An honourable assertion
only in that it is true;
and a brief regret that I made no contact
flickers out before
a blaze of contentment,
a bedrock of good fortune
with little to offer
the vicarious seeker
of hard-won wisdom.
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