What happened?

nessa Poems

"Wow, you are getting to be such a beautiful girl" "Thanks Daddy" All I could think about is his ***** working hands tucking me in His snickering and preposterous grin The scent that he had and all that escaped my lips was "Why dad?" 5 YEARS LATER. "WOW YOU ARE HOT, WE SHOULD GO TO MY CRIB LATER" "uGH GET AWAY ******* IM LATE FOR CLASS" I'm 15 and got the attention of at least 100 guys i mean, its not my fault i believe all their lies they want me for ME right...? I guess i am going to his crib tonight 1 YEAR LATER "BABY IM SCARED TO DO THIS" "Babe we dont have to do this is you dont want" "I DO, BUT IM JUST SCARED, I NEED TO BE ALONE RIGHT NOW, JUST GIVE ME 5 MINUTES, MY MIND IS JUST WANDERING " "Take your time babe i got nothing but all the time in the world to love you " Being in love has made this a hard process Why was I forced to suppress Would he have really killed me if I told someone? What would they have done? I ran too late Oh my god who took my place when i left the house? Oh my what have i done Is she ok 20 MINUTES LATER ****** hands Noone will EVER understand I couldn't handle seeing him do to her what he did to me I swear, I SWEAR TO GOD everything just went blurry I feel good though I had no self control I liked hearing him plead for his life I finally feel free thanks to this knife but I should've stopped him years ago I shouldve told on him back when I was only 5 years old This wouldn't have happened I'm sorry honey I have to leave though and not behind bars , no It's REALLY THAT time for me to go.. I hope you can forgive me someday when you need me just talk to me, i wont be too far away i love you.