There you go again,
back to the life that was always going to win.
I used to ask myself
what I was missing,
what I lacked,
what I could have been
to make you stay.
I don’t ask anymore.
I see you now.
Not as I wanted you to be,
but as you are.
The light I saw in you
was never yours.
It was mine.
Bending itself into something
you could stand in.
You didn’t choose me.
You didn’t lose me.
You took what was given,
held it just long enough
to feel like something real,
and let it fall
the moment it required anything back.
And I let you
once,
twice,
three times…
until I couldn’t recognize
the version of me
that kept calling it love.
That’s over now.
No anger left to hand you.
No softness left to borrow.
Just the quiet understanding
of who you are
when no one is mistaking you
for something better.
You can go.
Not temporarily,
Not halfway,
Not the way you always do.
Completely.
Because I already have.
And this version of me
the one you don’t know,
the one you don’t get.
she doesn’t wait,
she doesn’t wonder,
and she doesn’t look back.
Apr 29
Apr 29, 2026 at 6:46 PM UTC
There you go again,
back to the life that was always going to win.
I used to ask myself
what I was missing,
what I lacked,
what I could have been
to make you stay.
I don’t ask anymore.
I see you now.
Not as I wanted you to be,
but as you are.
The light I saw in you
was never yours.
It was mine.
Bending itself into something
you could stand in.
You didn’t choose me.
You didn’t lose me.
You took what was given,
held it just long enough
to feel like something real,
and let it fall
the moment it required anything back.
And I let you
once,
twice,
three times…
until I couldn’t recognize
the version of me
that kept calling it love.
That’s over now.
No anger left to hand you.
No softness left to borrow.
Just the quiet understanding
of who you are
when no one is mistaking you
for something better.
You can go.
Not temporarily,
Not halfway,
Not the way you always do.
Completely.
Because I already have.
And this version of me
the one you don’t know,
the one you don’t get.
she doesn’t wait,
she doesn’t wonder,
and she doesn’t look back.