The boy I hold,
Yet it seems he captured me.
The glances I keep,
the love I yearn for,
The story retold.
Cut, cut, cuts
Cover my soft arms,
The ones that ache
Yet leave no destructive harm.
The blade holds truth to some,
yet makes people run away,
Not so cumbersome
Until the price is paid.
The reach for stars and oblivion,
The tears that sing a song.
Love, love, love
Is fake and untrue,
Yet ruthless in me.
I cannot hide
Nor shut my awful mouth.
Die, die, die
And maybe I’ll cry
Over you again.
Ignore, ignore, ignore,
That’s what you say
Inside your head,
But why, why, why
Leave me here instead?
In the space you call freedom,
I find captivity,
My attention is desperate,
Sad and cruel.
I look in the mirror
I long to avoid.
Open, open, open
The doors for me,
Just one more chance.
I cannot bear this distance
That you call emancipation
From my forcing heart.
So I rush, rush, rush,
And I’ll do it again,
Not to anger you,
But to prove
I really love, love, love you.
Apologies, apologies, apologies,
Yet I never heard them
From your precious lips.
I should’ve, could’ve, would’ve
Been held
In your strong arms.
Again, again, again,
I look up to you,
Dreaming of all the ways
I should change.
But please, please, please
Do not use me.
Hold, hold, hold
The heart you did not choose.
Break, break, break
The hands you did not take.
And stay, stay, stay
Till death do us part,
Because I cannot escape
Your somber attention,
The kind that pulls away
And still expects me to follow.
Pay attention
pay attention
pay attention...
May 5
May 5, 2026 at 4:37 PM UTC
The boy I hold,
Yet it seems he captured me.
The glances I keep,
the love I yearn for,
The story retold.
Cut, cut, cuts
Cover my soft arms,
The ones that ache
Yet leave no destructive harm.
The blade holds truth to some,
yet makes people run away,
Not so cumbersome
Until the price is paid.
The reach for stars and oblivion,
The tears that sing a song.
Love, love, love
Is fake and untrue,
Yet ruthless in me.
I cannot hide
Nor shut my awful mouth.
Die, die, die
And maybe I’ll cry
Over you again.
Ignore, ignore, ignore,
That’s what you say
Inside your head,
But why, why, why
Leave me here instead?
In the space you call freedom,
I find captivity,
My attention is desperate,
Sad and cruel.
I look in the mirror
I long to avoid.
Open, open, open
The doors for me,
Just one more chance.
I cannot bear this distance
That you call emancipation
From my forcing heart.
So I rush, rush, rush,
And I’ll do it again,
Not to anger you,
But to prove
I really love, love, love you.
Apologies, apologies, apologies,
Yet I never heard them
From your precious lips.
I should’ve, could’ve, would’ve
Been held
In your strong arms.
Again, again, again,
I look up to you,
Dreaming of all the ways
I should change.
But please, please, please
Do not use me.
Hold, hold, hold
The heart you did not choose.
Break, break, break
The hands you did not take.
And stay, stay, stay
Till death do us part,
Because I cannot escape
Your somber attention,
The kind that pulls away
And still expects me to follow.
Pay attention
pay attention
pay attention...
pls leave a comment i beg ****
