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#stoptheban #thebanisstupid #seeyouaftertheban my home my family my safe space the people who helped me from a girl named suicide helped me eat when the girl named Ana pushed me down healed me from the girl named Mia when she looked at me funny all gone it was march the 6th I found this website colors flashed on the screen disappearing in seconds I was called "red" for that was my color I joined back I was called "purple" I soon recognized the tags of names Aubree, karoshi, x-red, R0tt3n, froggie I made one myself the koala emoji people called me "koala" soon I made friends they helped me when I fell Celestia, Sali, Karoshi, Isla those were my favorites at the time we had meeting times wed meet we were miles apart but brains in the same place Sali was in illinois Celestia was in India Isla was in the United Kingdom and Karoshi was in Hawaii the time differences were hard but we made it work slowly I was healing more people came and we became closer and closer bela, kayden, sasha, taco guy, n.n, marissa I was the highlight of the website they had charts on most messages I was at the top I recall people knew me as the helping koala "I love koala" "koala is so sweet OMG" "have you seen koala online?" I remember leaving for a week that week there was an update in early july it looked almost like discord the messages no longer disappeared the messages were, messages you could now have a nickname so you didn't have to type .sali -karoshi -insert emoji I never liked the update to be honest so many new people I felt forgotten soon I made more friends emi, dolly, Liam, Liam #2, Nathan, stormy, elliott emi I dated a week not the one I talk about at least I remember people saying she faked suicides she faked cutting faked breaking her leg faked everything I knew some of it was wrong but the thought of a girlfriend was so magical when she was gone I was fine I guess I was just eager to find someone new it was strange people came and went blue hair girl one of my favorites I had her number she disappeared forever I don't know what happens to her I hope shes okay but shes gone the more people joined the more I felt I needed to fit in it wasn't hard of course I got a new girlfriend emi again made new friends char, Pluto, Andromeda, izumi, peachinapod we called for hours laughed talked vented we were all healing together at least drama, **** pain happened but we got through it we were a family at least there was a girl I never quite liked her name "crystal" after my attempt serp told everyone about everyone had thought I died they made a group chat called RIP KOALA most people thought it was gross a lot of people were looking for me in the group chat char cried karoshi cried I hate that I hurt them all like that I never wanted to hurt them all like that it was a pain of suicide I can never describe again the feeling when everyone thinks you're gone lemon, my "older sister" cared the most I think she messaged emi until her notifications broke when I came back she comforted me for hours crystal however had told me "womp womp" was also a pain I could never express my friend ponyboy that was the only thing we talked about crystal we both hated her with our hearts we made a group chat called "crystal haters" my girlfriend found out she was well... mad I didn't tell her what she said about me I didn't know how, more drama happened relationships started forming crystal and skellings Olivia and criss luci and jasper mia and yaya izumi and andromeda they all crumbled yes skellings cheated, criss died, luci and jaspers time difference didn't align, mia lied about ****** assault, andro didn't get the love she needed all this pain we were holding peoples parents found out about the site Celestia, misty, lex were all gone I miss them all I made a promise to live to write the book they wanted me to publish and I will we all shared so much pain on this hell of a website I fell in love with a **** ton of people on this hell of a website it was my home I had relationships, fake fathers, fake mothers, fake sisters, it all sounds so silly but if you were there you would feel the same I got most of their numbers ash I text lex I text andro I tex emi I text isla I email bela I email florie I email Pinterest, docs, number, I had most of them saved I stopped going on after a while it became everyday to something I had to go back to after all my friends were there never had discord so thats where they remained I texted light there and pony and serp and kayden and everyone my family. until the new people came they threatened sh they threatened suicide what once was a safe place to talk about my feelings was gone the dev made the ban 16+ my loves my family everyone I hold so dearly everything was gone they were all banned all gone for 3 years I don't think I can see most of them although I had some saved not only my favorites but my friends my family the people I lost on there to death mochi I love you the people I lost to the ban I'll miss you it'll never be the same after that ban people will never know the old website like I did march 6th for now February 1st the ban 16+ has taken my family away I love you all so dearly stay safe love, koala
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Feb 3
Feb 3, 2026 at 1:13 PM UTC
the ban (read it all guys trust its interesting)
#stoptheban #thebanisstupid #seeyouaftertheban my home my family my safe space the people who helped me from a girl named suicide helped me eat when the girl named Ana pushed me down healed me from the girl named Mia when she looked at me funny all gone it was march the 6th I found this website colors flashed on the screen disappearing in seconds I was called "red" for that was my color I joined back I was called "purple" I soon recognized the tags of names Aubree, karoshi, x-red, R0tt3n, froggie I made one myself the koala emoji people called me "koala" soon I made friends they helped me when I fell Celestia, Sali, Karoshi, Isla those were my favorites at the time we had meeting times wed meet we were miles apart but brains in the same place Sali was in illinois Celestia was in India Isla was in the United Kingdom and Karoshi was in Hawaii the time differences were hard but we made it work slowly I was healing more people came and we became closer and closer bela, kayden, sasha, taco guy, n.n, marissa I was the highlight of the website they had charts on most messages I was at the top I recall people knew me as the helping koala "I love koala" "koala is so sweet OMG" "have you seen koala online?" I remember leaving for a week that week there was an update in early july it looked almost like discord the messages no longer disappeared the messages were, messages you could now have a nickname so you didn't have to type .sali -karoshi -insert emoji I never liked the update to be honest so many new people I felt forgotten soon I made more friends emi, dolly, Liam, Liam #2, Nathan, stormy, elliott emi I dated a week not the one I talk about at least I remember people saying she faked suicides she faked cutting faked breaking her leg faked everything I knew some of it was wrong but the thought of a girlfriend was so magical when she was gone I was fine I guess I was just eager to find someone new it was strange people came and went blue hair girl one of my favorites I had her number she disappeared forever I don't know what happens to her I hope shes okay but shes gone the more people joined the more I felt I needed to fit in it wasn't hard of course I got a new girlfriend emi again made new friends char, Pluto, Andromeda, izumi, peachinapod we called for hours laughed talked vented we were all healing together at least drama, **** pain happened but we got through it we were a family at least there was a girl I never quite liked her name "crystal" after my attempt serp told everyone about everyone had thought I died they made a group chat called RIP KOALA most people thought it was gross a lot of people were looking for me in the group chat char cried karoshi cried I hate that I hurt them all like that I never wanted to hurt them all like that it was a pain of suicide I can never describe again the feeling when everyone thinks you're gone lemon, my "older sister" cared the most I think she messaged emi until her notifications broke when I came back she comforted me for hours crystal however had told me "womp womp" was also a pain I could never express my friend ponyboy that was the only thing we talked about crystal we both hated her with our hearts we made a group chat called "crystal haters" my girlfriend found out she was well... mad I didn't tell her what she said about me I didn't know how, more drama happened relationships started forming crystal and skellings Olivia and criss luci and jasper mia and yaya izumi and andromeda they all crumbled yes skellings cheated, criss died, luci and jaspers time difference didn't align, mia lied about ****** assault, andro didn't get the love she needed all this pain we were holding peoples parents found out about the site Celestia, misty, lex were all gone I miss them all I made a promise to live to write the book they wanted me to publish and I will we all shared so much pain on this hell of a website I fell in love with a **** ton of people on this hell of a website it was my home I had relationships, fake fathers, fake mothers, fake sisters, it all sounds so silly but if you were there you would feel the same I got most of their numbers ash I text lex I text andro I tex emi I text isla I email bela I email florie I email Pinterest, docs, number, I had most of them saved I stopped going on after a while it became everyday to something I had to go back to after all my friends were there never had discord so thats where they remained I texted light there and pony and serp and kayden and everyone my family. until the new people came they threatened sh they threatened suicide what once was a safe place to talk about my feelings was gone the dev made the ban 16+ my loves my family everyone I hold so dearly everything was gone they were all banned all gone for 3 years I don't think I can see most of them although I had some saved not only my favorites but my friends my family the people I lost on there to death mochi I love you the people I lost to the ban I'll miss you it'll never be the same after that ban people will never know the old website like I did march 6th for now February 1st the ban 16+ has taken my family away I love you all so dearly stay safe love, koala
sorry guys js a little like vent Abt a website I'm on that got a ban I love them all so dearly hopefully they'll come back 3
#website#family#pain#heal#depression#ban
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F/in your walls
Feb 3
Feb 3, 2026 at 1:13 PM UTC
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