Holding out hope
Like a hand reaching through time
Holding space
Providing the arrows that pierce my heart
Thinking of you
Longing for you
Vacillating
Unable to ever truly close the door on our connection
I guess I did it to myself
Giving love to someone who never deserved me
Trusting what I felt instead of what I saw
Allowing you to occupy the space without ever filling it
Choosing to respect what felt stronger than anything I’ve ever known
I guess I did it to myself
Fooling
Blinding
Reaching
You left the room
Without so much as an "I’m grateful that you’re here"
Without so much as an "I love you too"
Without so much as a thread of hope
I guess I did it to myself
Provided the bow and quiver
Placed it steadfastly and aimed it straight for the heart
I guess I did it to myself, opened myself up for disappointment
You left the conversation without so much as a "Seeing you sent my heart soaring and my mind racing"
All of the timelines between us collapsed and there we were face to face
She standing in her truth and he still stuck in a lie
Fearful that if his heart ever stood for itself, the facade would crumble and shatter at his feet
And he would find himself naked with only one truth they know: love
I guess I did it to myself, allowing love to pass through me for you
Living in parallel universes with you
Because you asked me to
I guess I did it to myself, showing up in the now and wanting you to hold me the way I hold you
I’m exhausted
Saddened by you and for what could be
I kick boulders not rocks
Boulders
Boulders
Boulders
Boulders into pebbles until I find peace with you and skip trace them across the frequencies until they lay at your feet, constant reminders of the path you choose between us
Pebbles of love, sun, wine, hammocks, song, black and white, solitude together, heartbreak, silence, grey check marks, music, promises unkept, Irish goodbyes and outright lies
I will find peace with you in the love of another man’s arms until there is no peace because he is not you
Why did we ever have to meet?
What wrong thing in my existence did I ever do to deserve you?
I guess I did it to myself, believing in you, in love, in siempre
Pierced with the fiercest of arrows
I kick boulders not rocks
Boulders
Boulders
Boulders
Boulders into pebbles until I find peace with you and skip trace them across the frequencies until they lay at your feet, constant reminders of the path you choose between us
I’m sick of seeing the green guy, something needs to change. Show me love.
Oct 30, 2023
Oct 30, 2023 at 9:43 AM UTC
Holding out hope
Like a hand reaching through time
Holding space
Providing the arrows that pierce my heart
Thinking of you
Longing for you
Vacillating
Unable to ever truly close the door on our connection
I guess I did it to myself
Giving love to someone who never deserved me
Trusting what I felt instead of what I saw
Allowing you to occupy the space without ever filling it
Choosing to respect what felt stronger than anything I’ve ever known
I guess I did it to myself
Fooling
Blinding
Reaching
You left the room
Without so much as an "I’m grateful that you’re here"
Without so much as an "I love you too"
Without so much as a thread of hope
I guess I did it to myself
Provided the bow and quiver
Placed it steadfastly and aimed it straight for the heart
I guess I did it to myself, opened myself up for disappointment
You left the conversation without so much as a "Seeing you sent my heart soaring and my mind racing"
All of the timelines between us collapsed and there we were face to face
She standing in her truth and he still stuck in a lie
Fearful that if his heart ever stood for itself, the facade would crumble and shatter at his feet
And he would find himself naked with only one truth they know: love
I guess I did it to myself, allowing love to pass through me for you
Living in parallel universes with you
Because you asked me to
I guess I did it to myself, showing up in the now and wanting you to hold me the way I hold you
I’m exhausted
Saddened by you and for what could be
I kick boulders not rocks
Boulders
Boulders
Boulders
Boulders into pebbles until I find peace with you and skip trace them across the frequencies until they lay at your feet, constant reminders of the path you choose between us
Pebbles of love, sun, wine, hammocks, song, black and white, solitude together, heartbreak, silence, grey check marks, music, promises unkept, Irish goodbyes and outright lies
I will find peace with you in the love of another man’s arms until there is no peace because he is not you
Why did we ever have to meet?
What wrong thing in my existence did I ever do to deserve you?
I guess I did it to myself, believing in you, in love, in siempre
Pierced with the fiercest of arrows
I kick boulders not rocks
Boulders
Boulders
Boulders
Boulders into pebbles until I find peace with you and skip trace them across the frequencies until they lay at your feet, constant reminders of the path you choose between us
I’m sick of seeing the green guy, something needs to change. Show me love.
For CBM aid Dublin. Sent with a thousand kisses and tears.