A life i had once envisioned,
of loneliness,
and stares,
and a head staring down at the earth,
in sadness and despair,
all for the repair,
was a hope,
and a dream,
that a single day,
my life would be fulfilled,
I drew a map,
and planned a route,
towards this long journey,
and towards an even heavier,
and brutal destination,
more so the thought than
the life imagined itself,
and what a taste that is,
so futile our minds are,
and so egregious our thoughts are,
often compared to the simplistic life
we lead, and the wondrous,
and often beautiful acts we commit,
and so thus, empty and invisible
at times to the world,
but vivacious and joyful,
they seem to the souls that depart,
by the virtue of our choices,
whether of love, or care,
or help, or wonder,
and unconditional affection towards one.
Heavier these thoughts indeed were then,
directing a compass for the hollow and
empty life that i may have lead at behest,
as worse and mundane are our lives,
often compared to our imaginations,
and then one day,
a light in red, shined.
In Pain, and in joy,
all when i thought of this shine,
was of its light, and it only,
I swear,
in pain and in joy,
the only act a simple glimpse
of this immaculate beauty
could commit upon me,
was the act of a smile,
an act of joy,
and in the cause of pain,
and suffering,
as my thoughts were,
even then,
all i could think of,
and be reminded of,
was her grace,
a woman,
this was indeed, as i had found out,
that life was not all i desired it to be,
perhaps my destiny.
And from the day, all the realizations,
and the reckonings the soul has had,
leading up to my fate,
is perhaps the fact,
that God itself looked down upon,
this kindred and yet so dull and
meaningless of a soul,
and thought to empower and
complete its life,
by coming down itself,
and yet,
it didn't meet me,
by the right time.
But a chance indeed,
and nothing else this is truly,
a chance at permanence,
and a life of light,
going through these foreign obstacles
in my head, as required it must be,
to not fumble this life,
and form the ground with another tear
of regret in my life,
to be freed of the dark shadows and
the meaningless and
shallow and imaginary,
and unrealistic,
whether dreams of fruition,
or indeed just a false dream,
indeed the latter,
or as now, forgive me,
my father, and my destined creator,
cause i do not seek to know,
or wish to find out,
at all, about this road not taken.
I have gladly accepted what i had,
what i have, and now simply
have no further desires or
wicked imaginations,
of what i will have as i must not either,
to live in a dream,
you must accept the reality as is,
and now,
as this light in red shines bright,
better than a dream,
and oh so wild,
such, this reality survives.
And now, for all i know,
is at last, I am happy,
and have been granted a guide to life,
and this beautiful chance to survive,
so i thank god,
for having come down to earth,
and be in love,
with the non believer,
in pain or joy,
must my thoughts reside,
but from that moment,
that i saw and encountered you,
have only my actions
and choices sufficed,
so from this moment,
I say again,
must my thoughts reside,
but let only my actions
and choices suffice,
and let, in this life of mine,
of all and the many
that i may or may not have,
as in afterlife,
let my love survive.
And let this life of mine,
be an act of love,
with this light that as i hope,
may forever shine.
As all that is yours, is now all mine,
In Pain and Joy.
May 28
May 28, 2026 at 8:06 PM UTC
A life i had once envisioned,
of loneliness,
and stares,
and a head staring down at the earth,
in sadness and despair,
all for the repair,
was a hope,
and a dream,
that a single day,
my life would be fulfilled,
I drew a map,
and planned a route,
towards this long journey,
and towards an even heavier,
and brutal destination,
more so the thought than
the life imagined itself,
and what a taste that is,
so futile our minds are,
and so egregious our thoughts are,
often compared to the simplistic life
we lead, and the wondrous,
and often beautiful acts we commit,
and so thus, empty and invisible
at times to the world,
but vivacious and joyful,
they seem to the souls that depart,
by the virtue of our choices,
whether of love, or care,
or help, or wonder,
and unconditional affection towards one.
Heavier these thoughts indeed were then,
directing a compass for the hollow and
empty life that i may have lead at behest,
as worse and mundane are our lives,
often compared to our imaginations,
and then one day,
a light in red, shined.
In Pain, and in joy,
all when i thought of this shine,
was of its light, and it only,
I swear,
in pain and in joy,
the only act a simple glimpse
of this immaculate beauty
could commit upon me,
was the act of a smile,
an act of joy,
and in the cause of pain,
and suffering,
as my thoughts were,
even then,
all i could think of,
and be reminded of,
was her grace,
a woman,
this was indeed, as i had found out,
that life was not all i desired it to be,
perhaps my destiny.
And from the day, all the realizations,
and the reckonings the soul has had,
leading up to my fate,
is perhaps the fact,
that God itself looked down upon,
this kindred and yet so dull and
meaningless of a soul,
and thought to empower and
complete its life,
by coming down itself,
and yet,
it didn't meet me,
by the right time.
But a chance indeed,
and nothing else this is truly,
a chance at permanence,
and a life of light,
going through these foreign obstacles
in my head, as required it must be,
to not fumble this life,
and form the ground with another tear
of regret in my life,
to be freed of the dark shadows and
the meaningless and
shallow and imaginary,
and unrealistic,
whether dreams of fruition,
or indeed just a false dream,
indeed the latter,
or as now, forgive me,
my father, and my destined creator,
cause i do not seek to know,
or wish to find out,
at all, about this road not taken.
I have gladly accepted what i had,
what i have, and now simply
have no further desires or
wicked imaginations,
of what i will have as i must not either,
to live in a dream,
you must accept the reality as is,
and now,
as this light in red shines bright,
better than a dream,
and oh so wild,
such, this reality survives.
And now, for all i know,
is at last, I am happy,
and have been granted a guide to life,
and this beautiful chance to survive,
so i thank god,
for having come down to earth,
and be in love,
with the non believer,
in pain or joy,
must my thoughts reside,
but from that moment,
that i saw and encountered you,
have only my actions
and choices sufficed,
so from this moment,
I say again,
must my thoughts reside,
but let only my actions
and choices suffice,
and let, in this life of mine,
of all and the many
that i may or may not have,
as in afterlife,
let my love survive.
And let this life of mine,
be an act of love,
with this light that as i hope,
may forever shine.
As all that is yours, is now all mine,
In Pain and Joy.
