The thought of you makes me sick.
Knowing that you're still here,
It feels like you're always at my back.
Like there's whiskey breath down my neck.
I mistake other girls for you.
Wavy dark hair,
Heavy-handed makeup,
I wonder if they regret their faces
Like I do.
In the pit
Of my stomach,
I am empty.
Feasting on whatever
Sweet nothings I can gather.
After you left me,
Hungry.
I am slow to eat,
To sleep...
With a girl
Would be to
Replace you...
I wish
I had never met you.
Every day
I am betrayed
By want.
I lust for
The best of you
And I hate
The rest.
Part of me still loves you.
And that's the part I hate.
I try to abandon her,
But she is relentless.
I reach for lipless faces
And my kisses fall, tasteless.
I look for eyes across a room,
And find my sight
Fades to black.
The crook in my nose
Cracks open.
All I smell is rust.
I cannot face you.
My face goes numb.
My skin is see-through.
People are asking me
If I'm sick.
Dec 2, 2016
Dec 2, 2016 at 1:48 PM UTC
The thought of you makes me sick.
Knowing that you're still here,
It feels like you're always at my back.
Like there's whiskey breath down my neck.
I mistake other girls for you.
Wavy dark hair,
Heavy-handed makeup,
I wonder if they regret their faces
Like I do.
In the pit
Of my stomach,
I am empty.
Feasting on whatever
Sweet nothings I can gather.
After you left me,
Hungry.
I am slow to eat,
To sleep...
With a girl
Would be to
Replace you...
I wish
I had never met you.
Every day
I am betrayed
By want.
I lust for
The best of you
And I hate
The rest.
Part of me still loves you.
And that's the part I hate.
I try to abandon her,
But she is relentless.
I reach for lipless faces
And my kisses fall, tasteless.
I look for eyes across a room,
And find my sight
Fades to black.
The crook in my nose
Cracks open.
All I smell is rust.
I cannot face you.
My face goes numb.
My skin is see-through.
People are asking me
If I'm sick.
