when my hands turn to claws
and my eyes burn red
i sometimes cant hold back
the things that i have said
the fear of unrequited love
of losing someone so dear
is always so present
always so near
and im still learning
to push these delusions aside
to just breathe and be with you
and let the seas have
a calmer tide
its these past fer days
i'v been under so much weight
the bad thoughts cant hide
from everything attacking me from the outside
so i attack myself
and i didn't mean for you to feel the shrapnel
for you to see the blood
but i'm drawing a treaty of my sides
the irrational and logical
logic is in charge now
irrationality has surrendered
now we can be happy again
we can be like we were before
you made me fight even harder
fight this war for you
Apr 30, 2014
Apr 30, 2014 at 3:43 PM UTC
when my hands turn to claws
and my eyes burn red
i sometimes cant hold back
the things that i have said
the fear of unrequited love
of losing someone so dear
is always so present
always so near
and im still learning
to push these delusions aside
to just breathe and be with you
and let the seas have
a calmer tide
its these past fer days
i'v been under so much weight
the bad thoughts cant hide
from everything attacking me from the outside
so i attack myself
and i didn't mean for you to feel the shrapnel
for you to see the blood
but i'm drawing a treaty of my sides
the irrational and logical
logic is in charge now
irrationality has surrendered
now we can be happy again
we can be like we were before
you made me fight even harder
fight this war for you
my anxiety makes things in my relationship really hard but im not going to let it ruin something that made me so happy. im not gonna let it push him away. so im letting go of my anxiety, so i can embrace his love. and im praying he'll embrace mine
