I told you I loved you
and maybe it sounded impossible
like trying to name a feeling
that hadn’t been given enough time to grow roots
but I meant it
not the kind of love
built from years and shared histories
not the kind people point to
and say, “see, that makes sense”
mine was simpler
and somehow heavier
it was every smile
that showed up without asking
every laugh
that slipped out of me
just because you were there
I never had a bad moment with you
not one
and maybe that’s all it takes sometimes
for something inside a person to decide
quietly, stubbornly
this matters
I remember the day you cried
and it felt wrong
like the sun forgetting how to rise
like something steady
suddenly slipping out of place
I didn’t know what to do with it
except carry it with me
like a bruise no one could see
because you—
you were never supposed to be the one who hurt
you were the one who made things lighter
who walked into a room
and left it warmer than you found it
you called yourself crazy
like it was something to apologize for
but I saw it differently
I saw someone rare
in a world that keeps running out of rare things
someone who smiles
not because life is easy
but because you choose to anyway
and I loved you for that
not in a way that tries to take
not in a way that demands
or pulls or breaks
I loved you in the quiet way
that stands at a distance
and says
you deserve whatever happiness you’ve found
even if it isn’t me
still
there’s a part of me
that wanders into impossible places
into next lives
into second chances the universe might owe
and in those places
I’m not late
in those places
I get to stay
I get to love you out loud
build a life that doesn’t disappear
see pieces of you
running through a house
calling me theirs
but here—
in this life—
I’ll settle for what was real
the way you smiled at me
the way you waved
the way your nose scrunched
like a small, perfect signal
that the moment mattered
and it did
it mattered more than you’ll ever know
I loved every second of you
and I still do
in the quiet spaces
where your laughter echoes
and refuses to leave.
Apr 10
Apr 10, 2026 at 5:01 PM UTC
I told you I loved you
and maybe it sounded impossible
like trying to name a feeling
that hadn’t been given enough time to grow roots
but I meant it
not the kind of love
built from years and shared histories
not the kind people point to
and say, “see, that makes sense”
mine was simpler
and somehow heavier
it was every smile
that showed up without asking
every laugh
that slipped out of me
just because you were there
I never had a bad moment with you
not one
and maybe that’s all it takes sometimes
for something inside a person to decide
quietly, stubbornly
this matters
I remember the day you cried
and it felt wrong
like the sun forgetting how to rise
like something steady
suddenly slipping out of place
I didn’t know what to do with it
except carry it with me
like a bruise no one could see
because you—
you were never supposed to be the one who hurt
you were the one who made things lighter
who walked into a room
and left it warmer than you found it
you called yourself crazy
like it was something to apologize for
but I saw it differently
I saw someone rare
in a world that keeps running out of rare things
someone who smiles
not because life is easy
but because you choose to anyway
and I loved you for that
not in a way that tries to take
not in a way that demands
or pulls or breaks
I loved you in the quiet way
that stands at a distance
and says
you deserve whatever happiness you’ve found
even if it isn’t me
still
there’s a part of me
that wanders into impossible places
into next lives
into second chances the universe might owe
and in those places
I’m not late
in those places
I get to stay
I get to love you out loud
build a life that doesn’t disappear
see pieces of you
running through a house
calling me theirs
but here—
in this life—
I’ll settle for what was real
the way you smiled at me
the way you waved
the way your nose scrunched
like a small, perfect signal
that the moment mattered
and it did
it mattered more than you’ll ever know
I loved every second of you
and I still do
in the quiet spaces
where your laughter echoes
and refuses to leave.