sharing our duty
in ambulance cars
for several months
it took a masked ball
to make us meet
when I helped you
into your coat
in the wee hours
of a crisp December night
I just could not resist
to kiss the soft hair
on the back of your neck
you turned around
and held me close
though we did not
share a bed that night
this was when we turned lovers
without words
you were advanced in years
but not in love
so we explored together
a new world of sensations
love and pain and bliss
on benches hidden in the city parks
in my small Spartan student's room
and practically everywhere
our love and our bodies were
an endless source of pleasure
when I first kissed you
in a very tender spot
you simply fainted with delight
then came a perfect summer day
we horsed around in splashing water
when suddenly
the world went still
our play arrested
in a frozen moment
a time warp
to eternity
you still were close in space
yet worlds away
distance engraved forever
as one some Grecian urn
I knew then
I would always be
alone
to face myself
at my time's end
later you said
that I had looked
like I had seen a ghost
how right you were
took me some time to recognize
it was the ghost
of my most inner self
looked back at me
out of the glistening surface
of the pool
out of the cloudless summer sky
out of your loving frightened eyes
a self that had not then
and still has not
I am afraid
the strength to bare
his softness
to the one he loves
trying to save
a shining image
crystal clear
but in fact
dimmed long time ago
along the roads of life
perhaps it was this ghost
that made us
grow apart
you wanted all of me
and more of us
while I was still a student
with a goal
not ready yet
(would I ever be?)
for close menage á deux
determined but uncertain
in his quest for ...
well - in his quest
the flames were hard to quench
a whisp brought embers to a blaze
by the mere thought of you
we broke
made up
only to break again
talked over issues
faint with sleepless nights
embraced with desperate passion
for the last time
and then agreed to meet once more
at last we were burnt out
and
looking at the ashes
knew that we must have learned a lot
yet felt no wiser
only very
very sad
* * *
Mar 15, 2015
Mar 15, 2015 at 5:53 PM UTC
sharing our duty
in ambulance cars
for several months
it took a masked ball
to make us meet
when I helped you
into your coat
in the wee hours
of a crisp December night
I just could not resist
to kiss the soft hair
on the back of your neck
you turned around
and held me close
though we did not
share a bed that night
this was when we turned lovers
without words
you were advanced in years
but not in love
so we explored together
a new world of sensations
love and pain and bliss
on benches hidden in the city parks
in my small Spartan student's room
and practically everywhere
our love and our bodies were
an endless source of pleasure
when I first kissed you
in a very tender spot
you simply fainted with delight
then came a perfect summer day
we horsed around in splashing water
when suddenly
the world went still
our play arrested
in a frozen moment
a time warp
to eternity
you still were close in space
yet worlds away
distance engraved forever
as one some Grecian urn
I knew then
I would always be
alone
to face myself
at my time's end
later you said
that I had looked
like I had seen a ghost
how right you were
took me some time to recognize
it was the ghost
of my most inner self
looked back at me
out of the glistening surface
of the pool
out of the cloudless summer sky
out of your loving frightened eyes
a self that had not then
and still has not
I am afraid
the strength to bare
his softness
to the one he loves
trying to save
a shining image
crystal clear
but in fact
dimmed long time ago
along the roads of life
perhaps it was this ghost
that made us
grow apart
you wanted all of me
and more of us
while I was still a student
with a goal
not ready yet
(would I ever be?)
for close menage á deux
determined but uncertain
in his quest for ...
well - in his quest
the flames were hard to quench
a whisp brought embers to a blaze
by the mere thought of you
we broke
made up
only to break again
talked over issues
faint with sleepless nights
embraced with desperate passion
for the last time
and then agreed to meet once more
at last we were burnt out
and
looking at the ashes
knew that we must have learned a lot
yet felt no wiser
only very
very sad
* * *
