I will run marathons when I grow up
When I watch runners, I'm in awe
I imagine how free they must feel, how proud at the finish line
I have started training
It's going well
i mean - i'm getting better
still, i'm so far away -
very far to be fair
will i ever be good enough?
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I want to run marathons when I grow up
other children mock me for how unsportive i am
sometimes i don't feel good enough for my parents - they say that i could do it if i weren't so lazy
so i run every day until my Muscles Burn.
I Ignore the Stinging Pain.
I run after school.
even at night.
Constantly with the goal in My mind.
I need to go Faster. Longer. just Improve.
i'm not good enough.
-
my body Hurts.
i'm Exhausted.
the Pressure Crushes.
no - i can't Stop, not yet.
i Slow down.
my legs Tremble.
walking Hurts.
i'm Forced to rest.
is this really me?
no - this isn't me.
i'm no marathon runner.
i only ever wished to be.
i Despise myself for who i really am
my body - my mind - my Lack of discipline
resting feels like Guilt
Exhaustion deepens my Hatred
i feel Empty
i am a Failure.
-
i wish i were Different.
-
I wish to run marathons when I grow up.
Nov 6, 2025
Nov 6, 2025 at 10:41 AM UTC
I will run marathons when I grow up
When I watch runners, I'm in awe
I imagine how free they must feel, how proud at the finish line
I have started training
It's going well
i mean - i'm getting better
still, i'm so far away -
very far to be fair
will i ever be good enough?
-
I want to run marathons when I grow up
other children mock me for how unsportive i am
sometimes i don't feel good enough for my parents - they say that i could do it if i weren't so lazy
so i run every day until my Muscles Burn.
I Ignore the Stinging Pain.
I run after school.
even at night.
Constantly with the goal in My mind.
I need to go Faster. Longer. just Improve.
i'm not good enough.
-
my body Hurts.
i'm Exhausted.
the Pressure Crushes.
no - i can't Stop, not yet.
i Slow down.
my legs Tremble.
walking Hurts.
i'm Forced to rest.
is this really me?
no - this isn't me.
i'm no marathon runner.
i only ever wished to be.
i Despise myself for who i really am
my body - my mind - my Lack of discipline
resting feels like Guilt
Exhaustion deepens my Hatred
i feel Empty
i am a Failure.
-
i wish i were Different.
-
I wish to run marathons when I grow up.
This is dedicated to my younger self. A metaphor for not feeling good enough, pushing beyond reasonable limits, and destroying both the mind and the body in the process.