Seriously, heart?

kathleen-nicholson Poems

why can't my heart just be there ready for a new pair of eyes to stare at me while i make love to a not so familiar guy why can't my heart let go why can't it just PICK UP and go i'd follow it anywhere but here i am, giving it a tow! cuz it won't move. my heart is a complacent creature doesn't it know that change is the most amazing and exciting feature of life???? but no, my heart has to make life harder and decide that it wants to feel like i'm not making a smarter decision than it heart- i know what's best he wasn't the one for you and even if he was, you deserve a rest! you're just torturing us! you gained like 500 pounds i'd rather be pregnant for months on end than carry your weight around and i don't understand! why can't you just be strong? why should i have to pull you along? you're supposed to sing MY song you're supposed to feel how i want to feel you're supposed to follow my act but you're being selfish and immature this is not how we decided to react! so fine. I'm about to leave you on the road i'm about to carve you out of my body and I won't hear you screaming sorry! because it'll be too late i'll be numb i won't feel a thing i won't feel the hurt i won't feel the sting i won't feel a thing i won't feel the breeze no more emotion to bring me down on my knees no more worry, life will be fun cuz they'll be no more anything i'll just be numb. go badger someone else i'm sure they'll take you in you're great at manipulation making us crazy from within but I'm not taking it anymore i'm taking a stand instead i'll just go numb when someone holds my hand