I just feel like crying..
She doesn't deserve this...
I haven't heard her soft voice in so long...
And I was gone when I could have called her!
I was gone when she was put into the hospital!
Those devilish pure white rooms,
The rooms where everything bad can take the worser of turns!
I just feel so...
Helpless...
Useless....
I can't lose hope..
But I am...
It is all my fault...
I've always been there..
And tried my best to be her sister...
She's in pain and I can't help!
**** IT!
WHY HER?....
I'd visit her if I could...
But ....
I can't lose hope!
I won't lose hope!
EVERYTHING WILL GO JUST FINE!...
Won't it?
I am such a horrible person...
I should have called her everyday to check up on her..
I'm so young...
I don't understand ...
She's so young...
She doesn't deserve this...
I do...
I let this happen..
I'd **** the pain from her if I could!
But I can't!
****
I feel so helpless..
Useless...
Hopeless...
Dec 18, 2011
Dec 18, 2011 at 1:11 PM UTC
I just feel like crying..
She doesn't deserve this...
I haven't heard her soft voice in so long...
And I was gone when I could have called her!
I was gone when she was put into the hospital!
Those devilish pure white rooms,
The rooms where everything bad can take the worser of turns!
I just feel so...
Helpless...
Useless....
I can't lose hope..
But I am...
It is all my fault...
I've always been there..
And tried my best to be her sister...
She's in pain and I can't help!
**** IT!
WHY HER?....
I'd visit her if I could...
But ....
I can't lose hope!
I won't lose hope!
EVERYTHING WILL GO JUST FINE!...
Won't it?
I am such a horrible person...
I should have called her everyday to check up on her..
I'm so young...
I don't understand ...
She's so young...
She doesn't deserve this...
I do...
I let this happen..
I'd **** the pain from her if I could!
But I can't!
****
I feel so helpless..
Useless...
Hopeless...
