This thing
I have for humanity
Felt like a great love and
I wanted it to love me
but every day with it
has felt more like a beating
I thought after a while
I'd get used to this feeling
Rise and fight the good fight and
not find it so demeaning
But I started getting heavy
convinced myself that I was dreaming
Was it ever the world
or was it just your hate
Gave myself all the blame
since no one else wanted any
Tried to find you reasons
when there were already plenty
But I really wanted to believe
you wouldn't have done all that to me
I suppose that
I can see
Why some would believe
I must have been naive
For me to be waiting around
holding onto the belief
Getting older hoping they'd finally
want me to be apart of their family
But is it really all that fair
to tell a kid not to care
and give up waiting for their parents?
Dec 15, 2025
Dec 15, 2025 at 7:52 PM UTC
This thing
I have for humanity
Felt like a great love and
I wanted it to love me
but every day with it
has felt more like a beating
I thought after a while
I'd get used to this feeling
Rise and fight the good fight and
not find it so demeaning
But I started getting heavy
convinced myself that I was dreaming
Was it ever the world
or was it just your hate
Gave myself all the blame
since no one else wanted any
Tried to find you reasons
when there were already plenty
But I really wanted to believe
you wouldn't have done all that to me
I suppose that
I can see
Why some would believe
I must have been naive
For me to be waiting around
holding onto the belief
Getting older hoping they'd finally
want me to be apart of their family
But is it really all that fair
to tell a kid not to care
and give up waiting for their parents?
no matter how old they got?
Sorry, the holidays are hard for me.
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