Your heart gets split in half
**** it up
Your girlfriend broke up with you
**** it up
You have a good day
Act tough
You have been clean for 2 weeks
Act tough
You can't cry
You will be called pathetic
Weak
Fragile
No matter what
Don't...
All you have to do
Is fight through the storm
Mend your own heart
Learn how to swim
In the middle of drowning
In a 100ft deep pool
Of cold blood and drained guilt
Even if something good happens
You act like the world never changed
It stopped spinning in your eyes
Frozen in time
Not even waiting
For anything
Just ******* it all in
A sponge of neutrality
However, things change
When alone in your room
You let the water rush out
The sponge becomes dry
And your room is flooded
With despair and hatred
As you silently drown
In your life of depression
Now of course you don't show anyone
Because you are scared
Scared to be weak
You want to be like your warrior parents
Who show your pride for you
Who would do anything for their son's future
And the last thing you see
Is them crying
But they cry too
They get hurt too
But they show it
And that is one thing I try to do
Show how I feel
But I can't when I don't have an emotion to show.
Because I just can't feel anything
Even times where I enjoy myself
"Yeah, I remember that day"
Shrugging it off like another useless toy of joy
I am not depressed
But nor am I happy
I am just neutral
Because boys like me can't feel emotion
5d ago
May 29, 2026 at 10:40 PM UTC
Your heart gets split in half
**** it up
Your girlfriend broke up with you
**** it up
You have a good day
Act tough
You have been clean for 2 weeks
Act tough
You can't cry
You will be called pathetic
Weak
Fragile
No matter what
Don't...
All you have to do
Is fight through the storm
Mend your own heart
Learn how to swim
In the middle of drowning
In a 100ft deep pool
Of cold blood and drained guilt
Even if something good happens
You act like the world never changed
It stopped spinning in your eyes
Frozen in time
Not even waiting
For anything
Just ******* it all in
A sponge of neutrality
However, things change
When alone in your room
You let the water rush out
The sponge becomes dry
And your room is flooded
With despair and hatred
As you silently drown
In your life of depression
Now of course you don't show anyone
Because you are scared
Scared to be weak
You want to be like your warrior parents
Who show your pride for you
Who would do anything for their son's future
And the last thing you see
Is them crying
But they cry too
They get hurt too
But they show it
And that is one thing I try to do
Show how I feel
But I can't when I don't have an emotion to show.
Because I just can't feel anything
Even times where I enjoy myself
"Yeah, I remember that day"
Shrugging it off like another useless toy of joy
I am not depressed
But nor am I happy
I am just neutral
Because boys like me can't feel emotion
Maybe it's my autistic brain or something else but I really don't know how I feel.
