I wish my friends
would reach out to me.
At least one of them.
None of them want
to be my friend anymore.
Y'know, I don't know really
how I would handle it
if they did get in touch
and want to talk again.
Would I have to tiptoe around?
The things that defined our
friendship in the first place
seems to spit in the face
of walking on eggshells
around each other though.
What would I even sound like
if Luke called me up one day?
"Hey! Whoa, didn't expect to be hearing for you of all people! Haha, how's it been man?!"
Or something more familiar maybe:
"Sup fa99ot, you all done bleeding between the legs and wanna play some vidya when I get home?"
I like to believe that I could flip that switch
regardless of any amount of time that has
passed between us, that it would be like
no time has passed at all and we could just
pick up where we left off. Getting drunk and sh!tting on each other, sh!tting on
everything and everyone that we want.
Just laughing.
Maybe that's impossible though. Maybe it would be all awkward silence and wading through trying to ask him unanswered questions about why he wanted to move on anyway. He wanted to be a better person, that much was always obvious, and maybe that meant having to cut ties with someone like me.
They all wanted to be better people, Luke, Kevin, and Ryan too. I don't blame any of them for not wanting to be around me anymore. I don't blame any of them for wanting to just grow up.
I don't necessarily blame myself either though.
I do miss them, but I wonder if it's actually
just the idea of them I miss. The nights
spent awake till 4am playing fuck!ng
Halo or whatever. I miss being a kid.
Even though I'm still basically a man-child.
In fact the only thing grown up about me
is that my friends don't want to
hang out with me anymore.
Apr 8
Apr 8, 2026 at 7:26 AM UTC
I wish my friends
would reach out to me.
At least one of them.
None of them want
to be my friend anymore.
Y'know, I don't know really
how I would handle it
if they did get in touch
and want to talk again.
Would I have to tiptoe around?
The things that defined our
friendship in the first place
seems to spit in the face
of walking on eggshells
around each other though.
What would I even sound like
if Luke called me up one day?
"Hey! Whoa, didn't expect to be hearing for you of all people! Haha, how's it been man?!"
Or something more familiar maybe:
"Sup fa99ot, you all done bleeding between the legs and wanna play some vidya when I get home?"
I like to believe that I could flip that switch
regardless of any amount of time that has
passed between us, that it would be like
no time has passed at all and we could just
pick up where we left off. Getting drunk and sh!tting on each other, sh!tting on
everything and everyone that we want.
Just laughing.
Maybe that's impossible though. Maybe it would be all awkward silence and wading through trying to ask him unanswered questions about why he wanted to move on anyway. He wanted to be a better person, that much was always obvious, and maybe that meant having to cut ties with someone like me.
They all wanted to be better people, Luke, Kevin, and Ryan too. I don't blame any of them for not wanting to be around me anymore. I don't blame any of them for wanting to just grow up.
I don't necessarily blame myself either though.
I do miss them, but I wonder if it's actually
just the idea of them I miss. The nights
spent awake till 4am playing fuck!ng
Halo or whatever. I miss being a kid.
Even though I'm still basically a man-child.
In fact the only thing grown up about me
is that my friends don't want to
hang out with me anymore.
