The nurse said
she's outside on the lawn
don't take her out
to the pub though
she's been banned
ok
you said
and trotted out
to the lawn
through the double doors
of the hospital
to where Julie
was sitting in a chair
by a white table
smoking
she was clothed
in a white dressing gown
and slippers
she sat with one leg
over the other
with one of her elbows
resting on the knee
did you bring me
any more ciggies?
she asked
when she saw you
yes
you said
and passed her the packet
you'd bought
at the railway station
thanks I am getting desperate
she said
I was on the point
of offering myself up
for a smoke earlier
but one of the porters
gave me one for nothing
cigarette that is
she said smiling
she put the packet
in the pocket
of her dressing gown
the nurse said
you'd been banned
from the pub
along the road
you said
Julie looked towards
the ward doors
which were open
to let in
the afternoon sunlight
and warmth
someone gave me a joint
and the landlord saw
and chucked us both out
and said I was banned
she inhaled deeply
on the cigarette
you saw how thin
she had become
her wrists seemed too thin
to hold her hands
she exhaled
now I can't have a drink
or **** or blow
my ****** nose
she ranted
looking at the horizon
of hospital buildings
and trees and sky
sorry about that
you said
not your fault
she said
I should have been more careful
should have said no
to a smoke of that ****
but I couldn't
she inhaled again
and you saw her thigh
where her dressing gown rose
as she moved her leg
it too had become thinner
are you eating properly?
you asked
you're becoming
like my father now
she said puffing out smoke
when he turns up
that is
you're thinner
you said
the hospital food is crap
she said
I'd rather starve
than eat some of it
she stubbed out
the cigarette ****
in an ashtray
on the table
looks like you have
you said
have you come to talk
about how thin I've become?
or to cheer me up?
to cheer you up
you said
she looked towards
the open ward doors
they've locked that cupboard
we went in last time
she said
do they suspect anything?
you asked
I guess so
she said
some of the nurses
make hints about it
call it the love room
just because they have a life
they deny me of one
you took out a cigarette
from a packet you had
in your pocket
and offered her one
and take one yourself
she lights hers
with a red lighter
then lights yours
you both sit smoking
sitting in silence
watching the smoke rise
she thinking
of another place to ****
you wondering how far
she'd fallen
from her middle class home
through drugs at some party
and the long ride down
the slippery slope
she thinking of no ***
no ***** no dope.
Sep 17, 2013
Sep 17, 2013 at 6:02 PM UTC
The nurse said
she's outside on the lawn
don't take her out
to the pub though
she's been banned
ok
you said
and trotted out
to the lawn
through the double doors
of the hospital
to where Julie
was sitting in a chair
by a white table
smoking
she was clothed
in a white dressing gown
and slippers
she sat with one leg
over the other
with one of her elbows
resting on the knee
did you bring me
any more ciggies?
she asked
when she saw you
yes
you said
and passed her the packet
you'd bought
at the railway station
thanks I am getting desperate
she said
I was on the point
of offering myself up
for a smoke earlier
but one of the porters
gave me one for nothing
cigarette that is
she said smiling
she put the packet
in the pocket
of her dressing gown
the nurse said
you'd been banned
from the pub
along the road
you said
Julie looked towards
the ward doors
which were open
to let in
the afternoon sunlight
and warmth
someone gave me a joint
and the landlord saw
and chucked us both out
and said I was banned
she inhaled deeply
on the cigarette
you saw how thin
she had become
her wrists seemed too thin
to hold her hands
she exhaled
now I can't have a drink
or **** or blow
my ****** nose
she ranted
looking at the horizon
of hospital buildings
and trees and sky
sorry about that
you said
not your fault
she said
I should have been more careful
should have said no
to a smoke of that ****
but I couldn't
she inhaled again
and you saw her thigh
where her dressing gown rose
as she moved her leg
it too had become thinner
are you eating properly?
you asked
you're becoming
like my father now
she said puffing out smoke
when he turns up
that is
you're thinner
you said
the hospital food is crap
she said
I'd rather starve
than eat some of it
she stubbed out
the cigarette ****
in an ashtray
on the table
looks like you have
you said
have you come to talk
about how thin I've become?
or to cheer me up?
to cheer you up
you said
she looked towards
the open ward doors
they've locked that cupboard
we went in last time
she said
do they suspect anything?
you asked
I guess so
she said
some of the nurses
make hints about it
call it the love room
just because they have a life
they deny me of one
you took out a cigarette
from a packet you had
in your pocket
and offered her one
and take one yourself
she lights hers
with a red lighter
then lights yours
you both sit smoking
sitting in silence
watching the smoke rise
she thinking
of another place to ****
you wondering how far
she'd fallen
from her middle class home
through drugs at some party
and the long ride down
the slippery slope
she thinking of no ***
no ***** no dope.
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